I took my morning walk, I took my evening walk, I ate something, I thought about something, I wrote, I napped and dreamt something too, and with all that something, I still have nothing because so much of sum’thing has always been and always will be you.
I miss you.

A hundred years from now when you are alone in your grave, no one will care how much money you had, what car you drove or what kind of house you lived in. The only thing that will matter then will be your righteous deeds.

That song you keep playing is nothing but a photograph you look at with your ears.

Hope is not a plan.

You are not just here to fill space or be a background character in someone else’s movie. Consider this: nothing would be the same if you did not exist. Every place you have ever been and everyone you have ever spoken to would be different without you. We are all connected, and we are all affected by the decisions and even the existence of those around us.

I need someone to shut off my brain, and turn on my heart.

Be proud of your pain, for you are stronger than those with none.

Things will be far worse than
they are
And far
I wait.

You are perfect. I know it feels like punishment now but you of all people do not deserve to die and you don’t deserve to want to die. So hold on. I know there isn’t a lot of good out there, but if you go that will be one less good thing, one less glimpse into the beauty that only exists in the people we can still hold on to. So hold on to something real. You are stronger than the dark ink spilling from your guts and you are stronger than a million of me. Don’t give up just when things are glowing the tint of fresh hope. I thought out these words for you. There are thousands of you and I am here begging for life.

I’ve cried, and you’d think I’d be better for it, but the sadness just sleeps, and it stays in my spine the rest of my life.

I wish I could throw off the thoughts which poison my happiness. And yet I take a kind of pleasure in indulging them.

You can fall in love with words, you know. I’ve seen it happen. I’ve felt winds of words that lift bumps off my skin as I loan them my breath in exchange for nostalgia. They grow wings inside my heart and flutter down into my stomach.

There must be a limit to the mistakes one person can make, and when I get to the end of them, then i’ll be through with them. That’s a very comforting thought.

I’m not really worried what people think about me. Because I judge myself harsher, and on more strict terms, than they ever could probably.

You can die of a broken heart—it’s scientific fact—and my heart has been breaking since the very first day we met. I can feel it now, aching deep behind my rib cage the way it does every time we’re together, beating a desperate rhythm: Love me. Love me.

Tomorrow, you promise yourself, will be different, yet tomorrow is too often a repetition of today, and you disappoint yourself again and again

Some people fall in love. I had to crash into it.

If I love you more, will you suffer less?

The problem is that in the process of slowly forgetting you, I am fighting hard against it to still remember ever piece of you. As it is all I have. It’s the only thing I can keep.

I was looking at the big bright sky and there were so many stars and I just thought man, “it looks like they would take such good care of you.

2 a.m. Sitting alone at the coffee table, in the dark, writing and aching for you, while you are asleep in your own bed, far from here. Dreaming of someone else.

I represent to you all the sins you have never had the courage to commit.

War is not just about bombs and rockets. It’s about words.

I think you still love me, but we can’t escape the fact that I’m not enough for you. I knew this was going to happen. So I’m not blaming you for falling in love with another woman. I’m not angry, either. I should be, but I’m not. I just feel pain. A lot of pain. I thought I could imagine how much this would hurt, but I was wrong.

if ur grades smoked weed would they get high

I remember how much I am in love with you after all.

I saw someone on the street that reminded me of you, and it made me sad.

I still think of you quite often, but there are some days where I can let you go, let us go, let sadness go, and let the world take me to the most beautiful places in myself and outside of me.And then, I really feel free.

I will be back soon. I promise. I miss you, and I have never once not thought of you in the time I’ve been away.

Part of me thinks I don’t deserve this second chance. What does it even mean to be deserving anyway? All my life, I’ve heard so many different people say they aren’t worthy of something or deserving of someone. And I always ask them how they know. And they can’t answer. And neither can I.

I made myself from the love you no longer wanted.

I never really realized how much I hated you until now. I tried to love you so many times.

And things keep going, and pain changes people, and people change anyway but I guess I was hoping you never would.

I told you to let go. Several times. Now I’m telling myself to do the same.

I don’t understand how I could miss you, but I do. More than anything.

Norwegian Woods by Haruki Murakami

All we have to decide is what to do with the time that is given to us.

I’m afraid of time… I mean, I’m afraid of not having enough time. Not enough time to understand people, how they really are, or to be understood myself. I’m afraid of the quick judgements or mistakes everybody makes. You can’t fix them without time. I’m afraid of seeing snapshots, not movies.

"Nowadays people know the price of everything and the value of nothing."

"We’ll be remembered more for what we destroy than what we create."

"Everyone knows how to talk, and no one knows what to say."

"You cannot always wait for the perfect time, sometimes you must dare to jump."

"You can do anything, but not everything."

"One of the hardest things in life is having words in your heart that you can’t utter."

"This is how it works. You’re young until you’re not. You love until you don’t. You try until you can’t. You laugh until you cry. You cry until you laugh. And everyone must breathe, until their dying breathe."

"Sometimes the strongest people are the ones who love beyond all faults, cry behind closed doors and fight battles nobody knows about."

"He pushed that thought away. He didn’t like painful memories. Keep moving — that was his motto. Don’t dwell on things. Don’t stay in one place too long. It was the only way to stay ahead of the sadness."

"Love is a human experience, not a political statement."

"As time goes on, you’ll understand. What lasts, lasts; what doesn’t, doesn’t. Time solves most things. And what time can’t solve, you have to solve yourself."

"You have to find something. Something that anchors you, something that keeps you looking forward."

You never know what’s around the corner. It could be everything. Or it could be nothing. You keep putting one foot in front of the other, and then one day you look back and you’ve climbed a mountain."

"Some people’s hearts are hard to reach; that doesn’t mean it’s not there."

"Obstacles are things a person sees when he takes his eyes off his goal."

You can’t cross the sea merely by staring at the water.

"Sometimes the only way to catch your breath is to lose it completely."

"The two most important days in your life are the day you are born and the day you figure out why."

"I think I still have rain somewhere in my heart."

"Do not go where the path may lead, go instead where there is no path and leave a trail."

"You never knew exactly how much space you occupied in people’s lives."

"I felt I was on fire with the things I could’ve told you. I just assumed you eventually would ask."

"It was so gorgeous it almost felt like sadness."

"She is so lost in her sadness that she has no idea how visible it is."

"I am going to dream about you the whole night, the whole week, the whole year."

Alice: How long is forever?
White Rabbit: Sometimes, just one second."

"There I was… getting deeper in love every minute, and all of a sudden, I didn’t care."

"And who understands? Not me, because if I did, I would forgive it all."

"Try to be alive. You will be dead soon enough."

"I was a victim of a series of accidents, as are we all"

"You meant more to me than anyone I’ve ever loved at all."

"All moments, past, present, and future, always have existed, always will exist…It’s just an illusion here on Earth that one moment follows another one, like beads on a string, and that once that moment is gone it is gone forever."

"The truth is, unless you let go, unless you forgive yourself, unless you forgive the situation, unless you realize that that situation is over, you cannot move forward."

"I’m almost never serious, and I’m always too serious. Too deep, too shallow. Too sensitive, too cold hearted. I’m like a collection of paradoxes."

I miss and cling to people I shouldn’t. I distance myself from the people who matter most. 

I like people that allow me to be unapologetically me. People who know when to look in my eyes and when not to press me for answers I don’t want to give. People who I can sit with at night and talk about the unfathomable expanse of the universe as though we’re discussing the rain last Tuesday. I like when I can see them half-smile when I talk because they’re listening to my words with all that they are. I like people who make me feel present. People who challenge me and force me to think of things that terrify me. People who remind me that I have a heart beating in my chest and life swimming in my veins — people who make me feel real. These people are what I’m constantly searching for.

Don’t be seduced into thinking that that which does not make a profit is without value.

I was in a mood to destroy something beautiful.

"If you’re losing your soul and you know it, then you’ve still got a soul left to lose.

Perhaps it seemed to me that I had several more lives to live, and could not spare any more time for that one.

Sometimes things become possible if we want them bad enough.

The minute I heard my first love story,
I started looking for you, not knowing
how blind that was.

I’d happily take all those bullets inside you and put them inside of myself

It was very exciting for her, taking his dignity away in the name of love.

"You can’t fill loneliness with people you have no intention of loving.

Even if it’s a deep unhappiness, it’s onlyyour unhappiness.

I live in my dreams. Other people live in dreams too … just not their own

I am overwhelmed with things I ought to have written about and never found the proper words.

I would die for you. But I won’t live for you

It’s not hard to decide what you want your life to be about. What’s hard, she said, is figuring out what you’re willing to give up in order to do the things you really care about.”

Judge your success by what you had to give up in order to get it.”

Don’t try to make life a mathematics problem with yourself in the center and everything coming out equal. When you’re good, bad things can still happen. And if you’re bad, you can still be lucky.”

If you play it safe in life, you’ve decided that you don’t want to grow anymore.”

“Remember that sometimes not getting what you want is a wonderful stroke of luck.”

“Silence is sometimes the best answer.”

It seems to me we can never give up longing and wishing while we are still alive. There are certain things we feel to be beautiful and good, and we must hunger for them.”

Nothing is ever really lost to us as long as we remember it.”

Some things are hard to write about. After something happens to you, you go write it down, and either you over dramatize it or underplay it, exaggerate the wrong parts or ignore the important ones. At any rate, you never write it quite the way you want it to."

The first thing I learned at school was that some people are idiots; the second thing I learned was that some are even worse.

"I had jumped off the edge, and then, at the very last moment, something reached out and caught me in midair. That something is what I define as love. It is the one thing that can stop a man from falling, powerful enough to negate the laws of gravity." 

You spend your whole life stuck in the labyrinth, thinking about how you’ll escape it one day, and how awesome it will be, and imagining that future keeps your going, but you never do it. You just use the future to escape the present."

December 16, 2010 (by Parker Fitzgerald)

“Photography takes an instant out of time, altering life by holding it still.”

“You have to believe. Otherwise, it will never happen.”

“It’s the possibility of having a dream come true that makes life interesting.”

“You have to do stuff that average people don’t understand because those are the only good things.”

I hope you learn to hope again. I, still, hope.

“May I never miss a sunset or a rainbow because I am looking down.”

Tęskniłam nawet gdy byłeś blisko. Tęskniłam już sobie trochę na zapas, żeby później tęsknić mniej gdy odejdziesz..

People say nothing is impossible, but I do nothing every day.

If you knew what was going to happen, if you knew everything that was going to happen next—if you knew in advance the consequences of your own actions—you’d be doomed. You’d be ruined as God. You’d be a stone. You’d never eat or drink or laugh or get out of bed in the morning. You’d never love anyone, ever again. You’d never dare to.

Strange as it may seem, I still hope for the best, even though the best, like an interesting piece of mail, so rarely arrives, and even when it does it can be lost so easily.

It is important that you say what you mean to say. Time is too short. You must speak the words that matter

Hard is trying to rebuild yourself, piece by piece, with no instruction book, and no clue as to where all the important bits are supposed to go.

A loss that can be repaired by money is not of such very great importance.
And remember this, that if you’ve been hated, you’ve also been loved.

If you think anyone is sane you just don’t know enough about them.

The sun is such a lonely star. Whenever he comes out to see his friends, they all disappear.

"I placed a few nouns
in beautiful cages
then let them out"

i used to call you the moon, but i realized you shine brighter than the moon ever could.

Maybe you were the ocean when I was just a stone."

Don’t judge others because they sin differently than you."

"I’ve changed since I’ve known you. Not because you made me into someone else — but because you showed me a path I’d never paid attention to, and I chose to follow it."

And now we welcome the new year, full of things that have never been."

I have never felt the urge to jump off a bridge, but there are times I have wanted to jump out of my life, out of my skin

"There are two kinds of suffering. There is the suffering you run away from, which follows you everywhere. And there is the suffering you face directly, and so become free."

We are living on this planet as if we had another one to go to. 

"You have to keep breaking your heart until it opens."

"You have to keep breaking your heart until it opens."

"There were times, I swear, when we were living in the same skin. That’s how I remember it and that’s what I want to believe. Makes it easier to understand how we could live as enemies, off and on, for as long as we did."

The important things in life never happened by accident. But even with those things that were meant to be, sometimes you had to wait awhile and then maybe give them a little nudge.

"I can’t remember to forget you."

"I’m like that. Either I forget right away or I never forget."

"You used to
take my breath
away. Now
no one does."

The heart wants what it wants. You don’t plan on making your life complicated, it just happens, and you don’t do it on purpose, and you don’t do it to hurt people who love you. It just turns out that way sometimes.

It’s like everyone tells a story about themselves inside their own head. Always. All the time. That story makes you what you are. We build ourselves out of that story."

"I’ve been making a list of the things they don’t teach you at school. They don’t teach you how to love somebody. They don’t teach you how to be famous. They don’t teach you how to be rich or how to be poor. They don’t teach you how to walk away from someone you don’t love any longer. They don’t teach you how to know what’s going on in someone else’s mind. They don’t teach you what to say to someone who’s dying. They don’t teach you anything worth knowing.


Tired, tired with nothing, tired with everything, tired with the world’s weight he had never chosen to bear."

Is anyone anywhere happy? No, not unless they are living in a dream or in an artifice that they or someone else has made. For a time I was lulled in the arms of a blind optimism with breasts full of champagne and nipples made of caviar. I thought she was true, and that the true was the beautiful. But the true is the ugly mixed up everywhere, like a peck of dirt scattered through your life. The true is that there is no security, no artifice to stop the unsavory changes, the rat race, the death unwish - the winged chariot, the horns and motors, the Devil in the clock."

You can build walls all the way to the sky and I will find a way to fly above them. You can try to pin me down with a hundred thousand arms, but I will find a way to resist. And there are many of us out there, more than you think. People who refuse to stop believing. People who refuse to come to earth. People who love in a world without walls, people who love into hate, into refusal, against hope, and without fear."

"There is only darkness, starless and complete. The waves glitter like a million dull knives."

"If I knew the way I would take you home."

My soul is naked.
It wears the transparent garment of love."

After all, what is happiness? Love, they tell me. But love doesn’t bring and never has brought happiness. On the contrary, it’s a constant state of anxiety, a battlefield; it’s sleepless nights, asking ourselves all the time if we’re doing the right thing. Real love is composed of ecstasy and agony."

"Once you have met a true human being,
let him not disappear from the horizon of your heart."

"After that, when Alex pictured his heart, he did not just imagine the hole. He also saw the extent of the damage: all the love he’d gathered for and from other people draining out, an unstoppable sieve."

As it has been said:
Love and a cough
cannot be concealed.
Even a small cough.
Even a small love."

"The Buddha said that suffering was caused by desire, we’d learned, and that the cessation of desire meant the cessation of suffering. When you stopped wishing things wouldn’t fall apart, you’d stop suffering when they did."

"There’s never an easy route to the things that matter."

His skin
is a brutally beautiful
handwritten letter
from the sun."

Everyone who tells a story tells it differently, just to remind us that everybody sees it differently. Some people say there are true things to be found, some people say all kinds of things can be proved. I don’t believe them. The only thing for certain is how complicated it all is, like string full of knots. It’s all there but hard to find the beginning and impossible to fathom the end. The best you can do is admire the cat’s cradle, and maybe knot it up a bit more."

Her world had shrunk - no matter who she was with, she’d prefer to be with him. That’s what happened when you fell in love - you only want to see this one person.

"What I’m not sure about, is if our lives have been so different from the lives of the people we save. We all complete. Maybe none of us really understand what we’ve lived through, or feel we’ve had enough time."

"Dear heart, how fast you do grow up."

"Not knowing when the dawn will come
I open every door.

"I am very selfish, really. I lived for love."

"It comes so soon, the moment when there is nothing left to wait for."

"If you can’t impress yourself, then no one else really matters."

"Looking back over a lifetime, you see that love was the answer to everything."

"To you, it was just picking flowers. To them, it was a massacre."

"I remained too much inside my head and ended up losing my mind."

"My heart was too big for my body, so I let it go."

"Fill your paper with the breathings of your heart."

"It’s not that I can’t fall in love. It’s really that I can’t help falling in love with too many things all at once. So, you must understand why I can’t distinguish between what’s platonic and what isn’t, because it’s all too much and not enough at the same time."

"We all, sometimes, leave each other out there under the skies, and we never understand why."

"She let out a laugh, and then she put her hand over her mouth, like she was angry at herself for forgetting her sadness."

"There were two ways to be happy: improve your reality, or lower your expectations."

that it was not too late to hope for a better world."

"I love those who dream of the impossible."

"Where does a thought go when it’s forgotten?"

…one day I’ll touch the world with bare hands
even if it burns."

"A thousand dreams within me softly burn."

"Maybe there is hope in fragments, that what is lost can always be filled in by someone who knows."

I knew it was beautiful, but knowing something is beautiful and caring about it are two very different things, and I didn’t care."

But it was a lie, about the world being small. 
It was big enough."

I know that’s what people say - you’ll get over it. I’d say it, too. But I know it’s not true. Oh, you’ll be happy again, never fear. But you won’t forget. Every time you fall in love it will be because something in the man reminds you of him.

"I love you. It hurts more than anything ever has, but I do."

"I don’t even know what I’m saying,
But I’m praying for you."

Truth crushed to earth will rise again.

One foot onto the ice
I hold my breath
And try to believe

Expert at the art of making mistakes.

All these years I’ve been looking for an impossible love.

“I wished that we might spend one night together and die in each other’s arms. This seemed to be the sublime culmination of my existence.”

You’re like a song that I heard when I was a little kid but forgot I knew until I heard it again

I hope that one day you will have the experience of doing something you do not understand for someone you love.”

“At a certain point, I just have to try not to think too much about certain things, or else they’ll break my heart.”

“The mistake you make, don’t you see,is in thinking one can live in a corrupt society without being corrupt oneself.”

“He looked at her and for a moment she lived in the bright blue worlds of his eyes, eagerly and confidently.”

“Distorted realities have always been my cup of tea.”

“I have a deeply hidden and inarticulate desire for something beyond the daily life.”

“I went to the worst of bars hoping to get killed but all I could do was to get drunk again.”


I wish

“almost everybody told
a lie.
the truth was just
too awful and
embarrassing to

Dont throw away your life, its worth keeping/

“I don’t want just words. If that’s all you have for me, you’d better go.”

“You will always be fond of me,
I represent to you all the sins you never had the courage to commit.”

charles bukowski, bone palace ballet

"Our time together feels like a storm, like a wild wind and rain, like something too big to handle but too powerful to escape."

she never
the sound
of falling people.

my words run faster
than my feet.

You are never alone 
if your heart is awake.

My heart can’t breathe
when it hears yours.

                  has an

Every minute is just a another version, anothervision; a remake of before.

It feels good to be seen, but even better to be understood.