It is over. But in some ways it isn’t. / “everything was said to have been a lie.” // sorry im poor i cant afford to pay attention // I DON’T STAY MAD, EVENTUALLY I JUST STOP CARING // "you have to love yourself enough to not tolerate disrespect, disloyalty, and wishy washy feelings. If a person doesn’t value you, move on." .// Occasionally we must disconnect to reconnect later on.

There is something 
beautiful coming,
even if it’s only the sun.

Be beautiful enough to understand the meaning behind beauty and how it’s not defined by appearance.

Maybe a friend is someone who wants your updates. Even if they’re boring. Or sad. Or annoyingly cutesy. A friend says, “Sign me up for your boring crap, yes indeed” — because he likes you anyways. He’ll tolerate your junk."
Real Live Boyfriends


"Do yourself a favor and stop expecting better out of a person who continuously shows you they’re only getting worse. Pay attention to the signs. Stop making excuses for people. Stop defending their inconsiderate ways and start taking care of you and your own needs. A person is only as good as they want to be. No matter how much they claim to love you, Nothing and NO ONE can change them. Stop trying. I’ve learned that not everyone loves the same, however.. When a person loves you.. they will do what it takes to make and keep you happy. period." — Re

Look for us. I hate what we’ve become: two strangers.

Give second chances, third chances, but not a fourth, a fifth, a sixth and so on. Appreciate yourself and understand your worth – know it takes time for people to change, to become better. But know what you can take and what you deserve.


HOW MANY TIMES DO WE SAY WE DON’T CARE BUT DEEP DOWN WE FUCKING CARE SO FUCKING MUCH.
And when you get something good, please don’t go looking for something better.

Stop checking for people who aren’t checking for you. Chances are, they’re still the same person you left behind.. with no progress made or they aren’t who you remember them to be.. they’ve changed into someone you don’t necessarily need to “meet”. Anyone who doesn’t reach out, concerned about you and your well being.. shouldn’t be a factor to you anymore. let life take its course and accept that sometimes we outgrow people and sometimes.. they outgrow us.

, small cafes & summer nights. it's enchanting to meet you. 

That’s what friends do: they notice things. They’re there for each other. They see what parents don’t.
— Nina LaCourHold Still  

wish i could start over with a lot of people.

I still remember you 
as a little girl 
who overwaters plants 
because she doesn’t know 
when to stop giving.


You get mixed messages because I have mixed feelings.







The well-fed never believe the hungry.

Don’t wait. Writers are the only artists I know of who expect to get somewhere by waiting. Everyone knows you have to dance to be a dancer, you have to sing to be a singer, you have to act to be an actor, but far too many people seem to believe that you. don’t have to write to be a writer. So, instead of writing, they wait. Isaac Asimov said it beautifully in just six words: “It’s the writing that teaches you.” Writing is what teaches you. Writing is what leads to “inspiration.” Writing is what generates ideas. Nothing else-and nothing less. Don’t meditate, don’t do yoga, don’t do drugs. Just write.

This is mankind’s common failure, never to anticipate storms when the sea is calm

when women say “i hate men” they mean it in the “stop hurting me and my sisters” kind of way, not the “i want to rape, murder and oppress you” way. you know, the way men hate women.



Normally, we do not so much look at things as overlook them.


Life is tragic comedy, in a way. There is humour.


the first time we lose our innocence
is when we are told that
dandelions are not flowers,
but weeds, 
and that they are not to be loved,
but destroyed.

She is a star in his eyes-
Lovely
Distant
Dead.

He is the sun in her eyes-
Bright
Proud
Lonely.

i think one of the hardest thing in life is knowing that no matter how hard you work there’s always gonna be someone better and being ok with that


im such a judgmental person like this morning i was like “wow that person has the same handwriting as someone i hate i better not talk to them”









There are three classes of people: those who see, those who see when they are shown, those who do not see.
— Leonardo da Vinci

Feelings are just visitors, let them come and go.

This is such a lousy way to end.
— John Fowles - The Magus

I only want the sky
to burn me more and more
burn me out
— Charles Bukowski

Never think of your mind as a castle. It is an engine room.


Too many people overvalue what they are not and undervalue what they are.
it’s been too long and too lonely, too dark and too silent.

You are, I think, an evening star,
the fairest of all the stars.


or writer’s block as it’s known to us. We don’t struggle with drawing hands. We struggle with writing what that hand is doing in a way that is engaging. Instead of struggling drawing furniture and rooms and backgrounds we struggle to construct the same image but with our words. 
It’s all relative. Our plight is no harder or easier than an artist but we do not get the same level of appreciation or recognition that an artist does.
In the end what you get is the same thing. An image on your screen. The difference is you have to look a little harder to see what we’ve painted for you. 
So please. Tell the author that you saw it. 
We love words. They are our craft. So give us some back. 
Reblog a fanfic and get it out there so more people can enjoy it.  Please.


Somewhere over the rainbow, skies are blue, and the dreams that you dare to dream really do come true.


  1. so, go ahead and charge into the unknown, afraid of nothing. 
You don’t know anyone at the party, so you don’t want to go. You don’t like cottage cheese, so you haven’t eaten it in years. This is your choice, of course, but don’t kid yourself: it’s also the flinch.
Your personality is not set in stone. You may think a morning coffee is the most enjoyable thing in the world, but it’s really just a habit. Thirty days without it, and you would be fine. You think you have a soul mate, but in fact you could have had any number of spouses. You would have evolved differently, but been just as happy.
You can change what you want about yourself at any time. You see yourself as someone who can’t write or play an instrument, who gives in to temptation or makes bad decisions, but that’s really not you. It’s not ingrained. It’s not your personality. Your personality is something else, something deeper than just preferences, and these details on the surface, you can change anytime you like.
If it is useful to do so, you must abandon your identity and start again. Sometimes, it’s the only way.
Set fire to your old self. It’s not needed here. It’s too busy shopping, gossiping about others, and watching days go by and asking why you haven’t gotten as far as you’d like. This old self will die and be forgotten by all but family, and replaced by someone who makes a difference.

Your new self is not like that. Your new self is the Great Chicago Fire—overwhelming, overpowering, and destroying everything that isn’t necessary.

Courage is found in unlikely places.


The truth will set you free, but first it will piss you off.

One eye sees, the other feels.

And no one else remembers
       Except the moon and I.

Go, because you want to. Because wanting to leave is enough.

I can’t wait to get back there. I miss you my land. 


MAYBE ONE DAY, WE’LL RUN INTO EACH OTHER ON THE STREET. AT FIRST WE’LL STARE AT EACH OTHER, DREAMING OF THE PAST AND PONDERING WHAT COULD HAVE BEEN. THEN WE’LL APPROACH EACH OTHER. YOU’LL TELL ME ABOUT YOUR WIFE AND I’LL TELL YOU ABOUT MY KIDS. AND WE’LL PRETEND WE WEREN’T SENSELESSLY, HOPELESSLY, MINDLESSLY, SHAMELESSLY IN LOVE. WE’LL AVOID THE FACT THAT THIS AWKWARD SMALL TALK IS NOTHING COMPARED TO THE TIMES WE TALKED OF YOUR FAMILY AND OF YOUR STRUGGLES, THE TIMES THAT I STARED DEEP INTO YOUR COLD, DARK EYES AND SEARCHED YOUR BROKEN SOUL. IT IS NOTHING COMPARED TO WHEN WE SAT ON YOUR ROOF, MY HEAD ON YOUR CHEST, OUR EYES SPARKLING WITH STARLIGHT, TALKING OF ALIENS AND THE FUTURE, OF MONSTERS AND THE PAST. AND WE’LL BE OKAY WITH THAT, BECAUSE WE WOULD HAVE REALIZED THAT WE WOULD HAVE DESTROYED EACH OTHER, BECAUSE YOU NEVER WAITED, AND I NEVER STAYED.

 So we’ll slowly fade from each other’s memories, and become ghosts in each other’s pasts. The times that we stayed up until 3am and stared passionately into each other’s eyes while the world fell away will be erased. The times that you held me in you strong and warm embrace, your fingers grazing my cheek, your eyes searching my soul, will be forgotten. And the days when you grabbed me by the hand and whisked me to your favorite river at sunset, the sky delicately lighting your face, will simply fade away. And one day in the future, I will sip coffee while my children and I wait for my wife to return home, and I’ll think about you, and how we used to be madly in love. 

Because I was the one who cared.
I was the one who tried.
I was the one who loved.
So I was the one who got hurt.
 

 You made love a horrible thing. 







when ya realize that being a “gifted” and “advanced” student ain’t gonna cut it in the real world




YOU KEEP TELLING ME YOUR SORRY, BUT SORRY, I’M OVER IT.




I wanna fall in love with a dork. A dork that I can have random squirt gun fights with, someone I can watch movies with then throw a grape at their face and have them pretend to get angry and tackle me. I want to both go to the grocery store and sit in the cart while we push each other around, or throw things in it and pretend it’s a basketball hoop. I want to fall in love with someone that I can have fun with not for a day, but for my entire life. I want someone I can stumble through life with, while laughing the whole time.


YOU TEND TO GO BACK TO WHO FEELS LIKE HOME.




HAVE YOU EVER NOTICED HOW EXCITEMENT AND ANXIETY FEEL THE SAME? THEY SAY THAT THE ONLY DIFFERENCE IS THE WAY YOUR BRAIN SEES IT. MAYBE THAT’S WHY I THOUGHT I STILL LOVED YOU AFTER YOU LEFT.



I just realized I’ve survived everything I’ve ever encountered in life. I have a 100% survival rate. I’m fucking nailing it.

my writing style could best be described as “probably more commas than is entirely necessary”

“stop thinking about it” wow thank u I am cured u should write a book

WHAT WILL YOU SAY THAT I WAS TO YOU?” HE ASKS HER.
SHE OPENS HER MOUTH TO ANSWER, LIKE SHE THINKS ITS GOING TO BE AN EASY QUESTION, AND THEN SHE REALIZES, NONE OF THE STANDARD ANSWER APPLY.
“I’LL SAY,” SHE FINALLY SAYS, “THAT YOU WERE MY FAVORITE”
“YOUR FAVORITE WHAT?”
“THAT’S IT,” SHE SAYS, “JUST MY FAVORITE.

Things I want in the next 5 years
- a stable job that i love
- enough money to live comfortably and travel
- a fulfulling relationship


who needs friends when you have fast wifi






IF YOU FELL DOWN YESTERDAY, STAND UP TODAY.


YOU KNOW WHAT I MISS? EVERYTHING.
I HAD NOTHING BUT I MISS IT ALL.

THANK YOU FOR LOVING ME WHEN YOU DID. THANK YOU FOR LEAVING ME WHEN YOU HAD.

— Named after a constellation, you taught me to love the stars

  • girl: *screams at a boyband concert*
  • society: man what’s wrong with her that band totally brainwashed her
  • boy: *favorite football team loses**starts riots and people end up dead*
  • society: great to see the younger generation being passionate about something!!


I forgive the world because it has you


SCOOBY-DOO HAS TAUGHT US THAT IN THE END THE MONSTERS WERE ALWAYS PEOPLE



I just read this and thought I’d share. Strong words of advice.  
“Life isn’t fair, but it’s still good. Life is too short – enjoy it. Cry with someone. It’s more healing than crying alone. Make peace with your past so it won’t screw up the present and the future. It’s OK to let your children see you cry.
Don’t compare your life to others. You have no idea what their journey is all about. If a relationship has to be secret, you shouldn’t be in it. 
Take a deep breath, it calms the mind. Everything can change in the blink of an eye. It’s never too late to be happy. But it’s all up to you and no one else. When it comes time to go after what you love in life, don’t take no for an answer. Burn the nice candles, use the nice sheets, wear the nice lingerie, wear the nice clothes. Don’t save it for a special occasion. Today is special.
Over prepare, then go with the flow. No one is in charge of your happiness but you. Frame every so-called disaster with these words: ‘In five years will this matter?’ Always choose life. Forgive but don’t forget. Time heals almost everything. Give time, time. However good or bad a situation is, it will change. All that truly matters in the end is that you loved.
If we all threw our problems in a pile and we saw everyone else’s, we’d grab our’s back. Envy is a waste of time. Accept what you already have, not what you need. Yield. Friends are the family we choose. Life isn’t tied with a bow, but it’s still a gift.”



 me: I have a really diverse music taste
me: *listens to the same song on repeat for three weeks*
WRITING IS BEAUTIFUL WHEN YOU HAVE SOMEONE YOU WANT TO REMEMBER.


YOU’RE THE BEST AND THE WORST THING TO EVER HAPPEN TO ME AND I CANT DECIDE IF I WISH I NEVER MET YOU OR IF I WANT TO MEET YOU ALL OVER AGAIN

LATELY, IN THE SHOWER I HAVE BEEN THINKING MORE THAN I HAVE BEEN SINGING. I THINK ABOUT YOU.

EVEN FROM AFAR, I HAVE A PLACE WHERE YOU NEVER LEFT. FROM MY HEART.

homophobia is stupid. who the hell is afraid of homes

I’M TIRED OF BEING TOLD THAT I’M NOT GOOD ENOUGH. FUCK THAT. I AM GOOD ENOUGH & ONE DAY YOU’RE GOING TO REALIZE THAT, BUT IT’LL BE TOO LATE.

THE MORE DIFFICULT SOMETHING IS, THE MORE REWARDING IT IS IN THE END.

SOMETIMES RELATIONSHIPS END WITHOUT A ‘LET’S STAY IN TOUCH’ OR A ‘I NEVER WANT TO SEE YOU AGAIN’ SO YOU FALL SOMEWHERE IN THE MIDDLE AND IT DOESN’T MAKE IT EASIER TO MOVE ON BUT IT DOESN’T MAKE IT HARDER EITHER. AND YOU FIND A GUY WHO MAKES YOU HAPPIER THAN ANYONE ELSE HAS. BUT SOMETIMES YOU SEE SOMETHING, OR YOU GO SOMEWHERE AND IT REMINDS YOU OF YOUR LAST LOVE, AND YOU WISH THE RELATIONSHIP HAD ENDED WITH A ‘CAN WE STILL BE FRIENDS?’ BUT IT DIDN’T. AND YOU DON’T MISS HIM, BUT YOU MISS HIM. AND YOU WOULDN’T WANT TO STILL BE HIS, BECAUSE YOU’RE IN LOVE WITH SOMEONE ELSE NOW. BUT SOMETIMES YOU WONDER ABOUT HIM, AND YOU HOPE HE’S DOING OKAY



group projects are nice until you realize everyone else’s ideas suck except yours

not to be rude or anything but fuck you












THE 10 MOST DANGEROUS TYPES OF TEACHERS:
1. THE ONES WHO INSIST THAT THE GROWTH, DEVELOPMENT, AND EXPERIENCES OF MODERN STUDENTS MUST MIRROR THEIR OWN, DESPITE RECENT ADVANCEMENTS IN TECHNOLOGY THAT HAVE REVOLUTIONIZED THE SPREAD OF INFORMATION AND NEWS, AS WELL AS THE WAY TODAY’S YOUTH INTERACT.
2. THE ONES WHO PUBLICLY MAKE FUN OF THEIR STUDENTS’ MOODS, APPEARANCES, AND LEVELS OF SHYNESS.
3. THE ONES WHO TELL KIDS THAT THEIR OPINIONS ARE INCORRECT, JUST BECAUSE A STUDENT MAY HAVE AN OPPOSING VIEW.
4. THE ONES WHO USE THEIR CHARISMA AND POPULARITY TO MAKE JOKES ABOUT MENTAL DISORDERS, OR WHO SUBTLY ENFORCE SEXIST, RACIST, OR HOMOPHOBIC IDEAS.
5. THE ONES WHO CUT STUDENTS OFF WHEN THEY FEEL THREATENED DURING CLASS DEBATES.
6. THE ONES WHO ASSUME THAT QUIET KIDS DON’T THINK, HAVE NO OPINIONS, AND DON’T ACCOMPLISH ANYTHING.
7. THE ONES WHO ONLY EVALUATE A STUDENT’S POTENTIAL AND ACHIEVEMENTS BASED ON THEIR GRADES.
8. THE ONES WHO TELL TEENAGERS THAT THEY ARE TOO YOUNG TO HAVE OPINIONS AT ALL, AND THAT THEIR EXPERIENCES ARE INVALID AND PETTY.
9. THE ONES WHO FORCE STUDENTS TO DOUBT THEIR DREAMS AND GOALS BY BRINGING UP GENDER NORMS AND POSSIBLE FUTURE FINANCIAL OR JOB ISSUES.
10. THE ONES WHO BELIEVE THAT YOUNG PEOPLE SHOULD NOT BE LISTENED TO OR TAKEN SERIOUSLY BECAUSE THEY THINK THAT MATURITY AND FREE THOUGHT CAN ONLY START ON A PERSON’S 18TH BIRTHDAY.

"Someone hella worth it is going to come into your life and love the fuck out of you - and i really hope you don’t blow it…" 

People will not always understand you.
Dare to be different.
People will not always believe in you.
Prepare to work harder.
People will not always do right by you.
Let them go.
People will not always love like you.
Keep loving harder.




"You have to be strong enough to separate yourself from people who mean you no good. You should surround yourself with people who appreciate your presence and crave you when you’re not around. You should be with someone who deserves you.
if that means waiting a while -
if that means letting go of who you’re with now..
so be it." — Reyna Biddy
22:00


"You were never meant to please people - anyone who can’t accept you the way you are should be set free. You were never meant to satisfy everyone - Don’t step out of your comfort zone trying to cater to everyone all at once. You come first, make sure that you’re okay, before anything - before anyone. You were never meant to forget all the hurt life has caused you - but it’d be in your hearts best interest to forgive anything and anyone you’re holding a grudge against. Although you’ve physically let them go.. grudges mean you’re still holding on. Let them go. You were never meant to give up - don’t allow a series of unfortunate events overwhelm your spirit and overcome your mind to where you want to quit. Whether it be love.. whether it be dreams.. everything you go through is to make you stronger not to tear you apart. There’s no such thing as failing if you gave it a fair shot.. there’s only growth. If one love doesn’t work out, learn from your mistakes, and love harder. If your dream doesn’t work out the first time create a Plan B to accomplish Plan A. Sometimes we go through things to grow through things. What’s meant for you - in general - will always only be for YOU. 1. No one can ever take that from you. 2. Let everything fall in place the way that it’s supposed to and you’ll see - it’ll all make sense someday. You were never meant to be heartless - your heart is full of love and full of passion.. the longer you hold that in the emptier your spirit will get. Let your love tip over. Spill it onto people. Make others see why it’s okay to spread love - make others ecstatic to make love - make others love. be the example. be love. be happy. be fearless. be forgiving. be open minded. be loving." — Reyna Biddy

"If you’re unsure about me and the idea of ‘us’ because you aren’t sure that you’re “meant” for a relationship right now.. I’ll give you space to figure it out. If it’s because there’s someone else.. I’ll go ghost. period." — Reyna Biddy
16:53



"The simplest way to love someone is to truly understand them. Learn them. Learn their bad habits - and help them break them, learn their flaws - and help them grow to love them, Learn their fears - and help them face them, Learn their weaknesses - and do whatever you can, whenever you can, to show them their strengths matter so much more, Learn their dream(s) - and help them pursue them. Learn their hearts soft spot. Learn what keeps them up at night. Learn what scarred them in the past - then help them forget. Learn them the way no ones ever cared to. Love them like they’ve never been loved before. Love them hard enough to make them forget the pain." — Reyna Biddy







"I’m the type of person who doesn’t understand the “in between”. I’m really good at not caring - even better at loving with my whole heart. it’s the middle part that scares me. I’m afraid of giving too much of me, too soon. I’m afraid of not catching on to the signs and falling when someone’s been waiting to catch me. I’m afraid of not knowing someone’s past and even more frightened to know what our future holds. I’m the type of person who’s always running. I’m really good at walking away before shit gets deep - even better at becoming curious once we’re only for each other. it’s the middle part that confuses me. I’m not really sure I’m ANYONES type. I’m not really sure I’m the kind of person who anyone wants in longevity - and whenever I find myself in a situation that someone may.. I protect my heart the only way I know how to.. I leave. To figure out the in betweens some more." — Reyna Biddy

"Sometimes I wonder why no one has ever celebrated me - like really promote and adore me. I always spill my soul into everyone I know - everyone I love, and I never receive the same love in return. sometimes I wonder if anyone has ever bragged about me - like started stories with “idk man.. I think I found the one” and ending stories like “nobody in here compares.” I’m always quick to wear my lovers on my sleeve - show everyone how and why they’re meant for me. I always wonder if anyone has ever prayed for me - to stay. like I prayed for them. Sometimes I wonder how long till I can stop wandering - and wondering about love." — Reyna Biddy

"At what point will you realize that sleeping next to temporary bodies with nothing more than conditional love for you - will never feel as good as spending and sharing your entire life with the person who will never give up on you - who will kiss you with morning breath after rocking you to sleep, faithfully." — Reyna Biddy



Pay attention to what a person brags about before you’re involved with them.


indigos0ul:

reynabiddy just knows.

"I refuse to be a hurt person who hurts people."

you thought you could leave me behind.. but you still smell my scent at night, don’t you? you thought you could forget the way I rub your back till you fall in deep sleep but you’ve been having trouble dreaming lately, haven’t you? you thought you could go about your life.. like everything is alright.. but your stomach flips at the thought of me loving again, doesn’t it? you thought you could fuck someone else as if our love burned like hell but you can still feel me in every woman you please.. I know what it’s like to stare at the sky and pray for everything to fall in place.. for everything to be alright.. I know you wonder why, I’m still on your mind.. took me time too. you thought you could love again.. without my permission.. without recognition that I taught you to love me Ina way you’ll never be loved in return. you thought I’d let you throw me away so you could forget me?




IT TOOK ME A WHOLE YEAR TO STOP WRITING ABOUT YOU.

Snapchat convo’s with me be like… reynabiddy on snap & ig.

 believe we were right for each other, but not in that moment, which perhaps hindered any possibility of a future.

I loved you, I did. I believe I even sold myself a bit: on your love, my lust, your hair and just the way we stood there. How the air smelled of you, the way your shirt was cursed with blues. The way we danced by the ocean in front your mini-garden. The white fence, your loveliness and the heavenly kisses. It’ll always be the sheets, lying beside, holding your arm and kissing your hair in a loving stride.

we were just
looking for what could
instead of what was
what should be
instead of how it was


You don’t get over it. You move past it. You move through it. You lose yourself to find it, and when found, it’s yours and no longer theirs.

All of my bad ideas were always my best.

People are so worried about being accepted that it causes them to lose themselves and in turn, lose moments.

I see you in every passing moment.

We were complicated because we fit perfectly. Our stories aligned and grooves matched flawlessly. We shaded another with the loveliest night and lit each other with innocence. It was right. Everything was right.

It was perfect, but perfection is terrifying.

He was quite lovely and I was quite lonely, so I mixed letters and assumed it would work.

Some days I wonder if I stopped writing about him, if I’d love him a little less.

Maybe I hold on for too long, but maybe you don’t hold on for long enough?

He wasn’t my boyfriend, but he was something. Someone who made a positive impact on my life regardless of the negative. He changed my perspective for the better and made me who I am in this very second. I appreciate, cherish, and thank him for it; and I will for this life and into any life that may come.

Sometimes he does talk back, but sometimes he doesn’t. Sometimes he’s not there; and from time to time I believe this was all nothing but imaginary.

We just were and I just was. We lived in a moment and danced until darkness caressed our words. It was a chapter, a story, a lovely memory forever cherished in my memories.

I am not a hopeless romantic. I don’t hope for romance. I don’t really hope for anything. Just me, myself and I and if someone else comes along, that’s fine.

I no longer feel him in the air so who knows if he still lingers here.

I love you, but there will be a dozen more too.

It’s not that I cry because I miss him, its because I know our paths won’t cross for another thousand years or so.

Until we meet again, when the sky is blue and you are you and I am I.

Love comes and goes, it grows and knows and when it knows, it knows. Just let it flow and all will come… or go

Love comes when it wants, not when it’s best for you

Finally decided to sell this quote.

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The second you expect is the moment you end up shipwrecked.


The only difference is now I understand what’s best for me and how to appreciate moments for what they are and what they were.

We like our relationships to come as one, but they’re often a two way street where we intersect for a moment and then move along for the next intersection.




When you hold on to people who mistreat you with hopes of change or the fear of loneliness - u become more toxic to your own self than them.

Do not beg anyone to love you.
Do not beg anyone to trust you.
Do not beg anyone to come or to stay.
You are so much better than that.

"you deserve to be loved. you deserve to be touched. you deserve to be kissed. you deserve to be worshipped. you deserve to be treated right.


"that’s the cruel thing about memories, you can’t control when they decide to creep up on you and make your chest feel heavy." —

"you don’t truly know a woman until you understand every word she isn’t saying to you."

"If someone doesn’t value you, they deserve to lose you. it’s that simple." 

"Sometimes I wonder what it’s like to receive love in the same way that I give it. Sometimes I wonder why it’s hard to find someone who’s genuine. Sometimes I wonder where I’d meet someone who’s just for me.. sometimes I get tired of wondering. Sometimes I get bored of meeting the same people in different bodies. Sometimes I wanna be a priority.. I don’t even have to be all that’s on your mind.. just the majority." — Reyna Biddy

lipsticklovva:

Thankyou reynabiddy

you’re not supposed to hurt the people you love.
you’re not supposed to abandon the people you love.
you’re not supposed to use the people you love.
you’re not supposed to neglect the people you love.
you’re not supposed to embarrass the people you love.
you’re not supposed to abuse the people you love.
you’re not supposed to ignore the people you love.
you’re not supposed to manipulate the people you love
you’re not supposed to lie to the people you love.
you’re not supposed to harm the people you love.
you’re supposed to protect the people you love.
you’re supposed to fight for the people you love.
you’re supposed to continuously choose the people you love.
you’re supposed to cater to the people you love.
you’re supposed to make time for the people you love.
you’re supposed to trust the people you love.
you’re supposed to go out of your way for the people you love.
you’re supposed to be open and honest with the people you love.
you’re supposed to help guide the people you love.
you’re supposed to be good to the people you love.

"My biggest fear is letting someone walk off with the best parts of me." 



"I love hard as fuck and i’ll never apologize for it." 
"There’s nothing more difficult and confusing than trying to love a person who doesn’t know how to be loved. You will have bruises on your heart and cuts in your mouth from continuously accepting conditional love and holding back the love you want to give unconditionally." — R


"I know what it’s like to keep the door open for someone who keeps abusing your hearts welcoming. I know what it’s like to hope for someone to love me in the same kind of way that I love them. I know what it’s like to pray for healing from the same person who broke me." — Reyna Biddy


"it’s important that you value who and what you have while you have them/it. it’s inevitable that ppl grow apart & things fall apart but if you’re genuine with your whole heart & pure with all of your intentions whether you lose it all or not, no one can tell you that you weren’t appreciative or thankful to have them. Show love at all times, in any situation. Be good to people always. That way, you know, if or when shit hits the fan, you were always a good person regardless of the circumstance. The quote “treat people how you want to be treated” holds heavy weight. Pay attention." — Reyna Biddy


Some days I feel things too deep. and other days I wonder what it’s like to feel anything at all. Sometimes I can feel the exact moment where everything in a relationship changes, for the worst. It’s like a super power. That moment you look inside your lovers eyes and don’t feel love anymore. Sometimes I can’t understand why it all hurts so bad.. and other times I can’t understand why it doesn’t hurt at all.

"I trust the universe to bring me everything I need in the right time.



The truth is, while they’re breaking your heart they probably won’t even have the decency to tell the truth. Like they aren’t really leaving because they have to focus on themselves, they’re leaving because they’re tired of focusing on you. or maybe.. they’re looking to find someone new and place their focus there. The truth is, sometimes true love does end. it isn’t always infinite. Maybe some of the promises he/she made weren’t meant to be broken but the universe stepped in between and interfered. Maybe you were the one they dreamt about.. but sometimes dreams become blurry. sometimes we grow up and grow apart. sometimes the truth is ugly but the growth is lovely. you have to learn to accept and appreciate all of your breakdowns in order to acknowledge your breakthroughs. and.. Truthfully, no matter how distraught you are today.. one day, someday, tomorrow will get better. the sun will beam brighter. & you’ll fall in love all over again.
13:19


Real loss is only possible when you love some one or value something more than you love & value your own self.

16:48
not sure that I’ve ever really dealt with a real man..
not sure that I’ve ever been anybody’s type
not sure that I’m the type of person worth learning.. or that i’m capable of being learned at all.
not sure that I’m who you think I am
not sure that you’d like me If I showed you my scars
not sure of many things these days
not sure that I belong
not sure that this makes sense or that I do at all.. i could possibly have it all wrong

"Just because I might avoid you when I see you, doesn’t mean I didn’t love you at one point." —

I needed an excuse to miss you.

hat I would do for you, might scare you.
sé que no estamos enamorados pero dame un beso.
let me taste who you were before I met you.
let me figure out why they left you.. and if they left all the ashes that remained from the incense that were too intense to make love in - I’m sure it was hard to smell the fuck.. the fucks that were given and the lust that was in it.
I know how hard you can be.
I know how hard it may seem to give yourself to a being when within your heart lies uncertainty.
I know what it’s like to feel empty.
you know it’s alright to be open with me - I’ve got no intentions of holding you down if you don’t want that from me.
tired of asking when you’re free.
I always laugh at how bad I want you.
The way an addict wants his vice
lovers want the night
I want you in a grown up way.
not the kind of crush I had in 10th grade, this is not the same
back then shit was fun but this is not a game..
I want you to touch the parts of me that other men are scared to see and forget all the reasons you can’t stay.
I know what you like,
I know what it’s like to keep the best parts of me hidden, aren’t you exhausted?
I can make you feel alright..
you never really told me why you were into me.
I’m eager for you to hold me like it means anything.
different from what you’re use to. Hope my persistence doesn’t scare you..
it’s just some nights I crave you when I know I shouldn’t.
- Reyna Biddy
13:28




I don’t miss you like I used to ..

Ultimately, i’ve come to realization that i’m better off alone.. oppose to dealing with males who are still unaware of how to be men. Settling down, eventually, is inevitable, but I’m far too whole within myself to ever have to settle for something that isn’t 100 percent certain/fulfilled. A lot of females fail to realize, and[or] learn that you define your own worth. No one being should have the luxury of persuading you otherwise. Life’s too beautiful to spend it around people who treat you like you’re ordinary…
.Stop Settling.

"I could treat you right if you let me.. I mean, I saw the way you looked when you first met me. I know what it’s like to be frightened by love, but love.. I’m the type of love you’ve been waiting to see. I’m the type of woman who can bring you to your knees. We could dance under stars or drink green tea in the spring. I could love you through the midnight hours and put you straight to sleep. You see.. I’m the kind of person you’ve been missing. I could love you so hard because I love me. I love me enough to see right through you. I can see the fear in your eyes when you look at a real woman.. a woman capable of any and everything.. a woman who doesn’t expect perfect and sees your potential.. a woman willing to work with all that you are and kiss all of your scars, away.. I could be the one.. if you let me."


You weren’t sure I was the sea till my tide held tight and you started drowning.
Guards should’ve warned you I got that good ting.
Ive burned Forrest’s in your name, i got that good weed.
Got me thinking,

about you thinking about me and why you left so easy
Someone told me shit’ll leave me the same way it received me.
So. Fuck it.


Lately I’ve been trying to remember who I am. Or who I was. Trying to retrace the steps I took to get to this numb place. Trying to retract every man who lead me here. One by one I kept breaking. Loving the idea of what love made me. So happy, So alive. Trying to understand where I went wrong and how all our feelings died. I just wanted to be happy with you. I just wanted to heal you. I made the mistake of believing you could heal someone who’s already broken. & hurt myself. Sometimes I just.. miss me.
- I should have loved you less.
- I should have loved myself more.



Love has become so hard to find and preserve because its so easy for people to quit. It’s so easy for someone to give up something they’ve never truly had. It’s so easy to look else where when you’ve got a million people on your social media to remind you how many people there truly are out there. Its so easy to get divorced now because it isn’t as frowned upon as it once was. It’s so easy to get involved with a person and give up as soon as shit gets rough but.. I want someone who won’t quit on me. Someone who will accept my bad habits and help me change them. Someone who will appreciate my flaws and make me love them.  Someone who will wake up day after day, look me in my face and tell me “No matter how much shit we get put through, no matter how much debt we put ourselves into, no matter how many other options there are out there, no matter how dark the tunnel gets, I will forever look for the light in our situation. I will continue to work on myself to preserve what we have. I will never give you up because nobody else out there can give me the love that you’ve got. I will never quit on you.”


"The moment you find your worth you’ll stop giving out discounts on the parts of you that make you priceless

you promised me the world then left mine black and white.


sometimes we question why others can’t see us. sometimes we wonder why our lovers don’t truly need us. sometimes we alter our entire self to fit the standards of someone else as if we aren’t satisfied - being us. but you’re perfect. I promise. your scars work daily to stitch themselves into beauty marks. your eyes continue to burn, dim, but after all those nights you were blown out and neglected.. your heart stayed lit. your lips are longing for a love from someone who loves that you love yourself. it’s time for a kiss. The loyalty in your back holds you up even while aching from the men who claimed they’d hold you down and you effortlessly drowned in. your fingers still play a nostalgic song from the days before you gave yourself away and allowed someone to pollute your mind with the idea that you aren’t breathtaking. you’re everything. you see, sometimes our vision gets blurry and we just so happen to think that others have more beauty. we dilute ourselves to grow into someone less than who we are. Leaving unfinished art on our hearts.. but you can’t love someone into loving you.. you’re better off with your bones picked apart, loving all that you are and all that you were, from the start.
Reyna Biddy

In the midst of one of our passionate kisses, I began to ask..
“Will we still be in love, this time.. Next year?”
02:19


AND, WHEN YOU WANT SOMETHING, ALL THE UNIVERSE CONSPIRES IN HELPING YOU TO ACHIEVE IT.


but in our story, 
who is the monster at the end of the book? 
oh my love, the monster is time.

Poets, like the blind, can see in the dark.

Let it hurt. Let it bleed. Let it heal. And let it go.

I and me are always too deeply in conversation.


"Whoever you pretend to be, you must face yourself eventually."

It’s funny about love’, Sophia said. ‘The more you love someone, the less he likes you back.’
‘That’s very true,’ Grandmother observed. 'And so what do you do?’
'You go on loving,’ said Sophia threateningly. 'You love harder and harder.’"
Tove Jansson, The Summer Book

"Is it splendid, or stupid, to take life seriously?"
Gustave Flaubert 


There are years that ask questions and years that answer."

"I knew I did from that first moment we met. It was… Not love at first sight exactly, but - familiarity. Like: oh, hello, it’s you. It’s going to be you."

one day I’m gonna write a story about two people who love each other like moths love the light and it’ll be helpless and hopeless and entirely heartbreaking, it’ll be like constantly searching for the moon in other people and flying straight towards it even though it hurts

in another universe the sky is always pink and i didn’t leave three people for you and in another one the trees grow downwards with their roots in the air and in another one we meet in the middle of the street at the age of six while chasing after the same butterfly




"Your eyes make me shy."

My life is perfect, even when it is not."

"You have no idea what a charming memory you are to me."
Friedrich NietzscheSelected Letters  

"Someday I’ll write about how wrong I was about you."


"The worst thing in the world can happen, but the next day the sun will come up. And you will eat your toast. And you will drink your tea."
Rhian Ellis, After Life 

"If the path before you is clear, you’re probably on someone else’s."
Joseph Campbell 

"Sunsets are loved because they vanish. Flowers are loved because they go."

"But, you shouldn’t be afraid of pain. If she says ‘no’ then so
be it. Your heart is built stronger than what you
credit it for."

be the person your dog thinks you are

I don’t know when we’ll see each other again or what the world will be like when we do. We may both have seen many horrible things. But I will think of you every time I need to be reminded that there is beauty and goodness in the world."
Arthur Golden, Memoirs of a Geisha

"Write drunk, edit sober."


The day you stop racing, is the day you win the race."

"Time has taught me not to lose hope, yet not to trust too much in hope either."
Carlos Ruiz Zafón

"Big things are often just little things that people notice."

"Sometimes I think everyone is just pretending to be brave, and none of us really are. Maybe pretending is how you get brave."

…I long so much to make beautiful things. But beautiful things require effort — and disappointment and perseverance."

Behind such thick clouds
How lonely must be the moon…"



no dog should ever be homeless
no home should ever be dogless





"How did people get over this? They obviously did. Every day someone fell in love with the wrong person and had to pack up all their fragile, misguided hopes and unwanted affection, and move on."

"I’m one of those people that you have to keep your eye on or I’ll wander off into the woods and forget to come back."

"The worst part of holding the memories is not the pain. It’s the loneliness of it. Memories need to be shared.

"Hearts cause pain, as light causes shadow

"The devil doesn’t come dressed in a red cape and pointy horns. He comes as everything you’ve ever wished for."
those who keep asking the same question, really don’t want to hear the answer."
Charles Bukowski, “The Continual Condition.”

The real loneliness is living among all these kind people who only ask one to pretend."

"I write about you. You’ll find yourself in my pieces; in my poetry; in every prose I make."

Emotionally, I wanted to stay. Intellectually, I wanted to leave. As always, I seemed to enjoy punishing myself."

"They’ll ask if you knew me dear
And I hope you say you did
But if you say you didn’t well then
I wouldn’t question it"

"I always felt like I was a heartbreak away from creating my masterpiece."


"Read a book as if you’re reading a love letter."


"I believe I’ve already met my soulmate and even if I’m not his, the memory makes me smile because it was truly beautiful."

he’s soft
simple
elegant
lovely
quite a divine
gentleman

he could love without loving
his heart seemed right
but his eyes were rough
and his love was never yours
and his touch was never kind


I was greedy in a sense. I had everything I could ever want standing right in front of me and I didn’t know how to handle it. I wanted more, something else. I need to want and I can’t want when I have it all standing right in front of me.




You can’t be afraid to lose someone for the fear of becoming lost, as eventually you are always found.

You don’t need to be with someone to appreciate and love them. It’s called unconditional and it’s when love holds no definition.

You hit a certain age where you simply stop bending and breaking for other people’s egos.


I’m not looking for anything, but who knows. Lightning is weird.

The meaning of life is to die living it.

I never expected you to understand, but I did expect you to be there.

Arrogance will kill anything and everything you ever possibly have.


I’m not thankful for being fucked over, I’m thankful for what I took from it. What I learned. What I taught myself in that particular moment. I'm grateful someone was able to take me there and let me be in that moment - not with them, but with myself. How my emotions could surrender to someone and make me feel everything I felt. It destroyed me, but I made my way through; and I look back years from, and I still love him, I do.

I think if we stop running towards broken arms, we’d all be just fine.


He was beautiful and still is, we just couldn’t flow within the same constellation.

My friends never met him, my parents or really even me.

Some fake happiness, some fake sadness and some fake an orgasm.


I don’t remember
lighting this cigarette
and I don’t remember
if I’m here alone
or waiting for someone

There’s something they don’t tell you about solitude. It heals.

http://inapted.tumblr.com/







elliebites:

reynabiddy

We live in a world where everybody wants to be the pretty crier.

I think, maybe, at the time I was just lonely.

We were wrong, but oh so right.

I’d tattoo your face across my body just to show you I’m not afraid of commitment.

If loving you is wrong, I guess I’ll always be wrong.

Some align and intertwine while some fade with haze, but we grow making it okay.

People are far too obsessed with a fairytale image rather than what’s standing right in front of them.

There’s something really bittersweet about the end and how we appreciate the fine moments that we had.

He turned down the music just to hear her sing.

and even in dreams
he never chased
never saved
i was gone

The future is vague, unsure, uncertain:
a possibility.

He took my breath
and ran.

I live in a world where I’m not afraid of dying or killing and I’ve come to the point where I don’t know if it’s healthy or insane.

We would get into arguments and I always said I’m leaving because I wanted someone to chase after me. I just wanted to be wanted.

You are worth more than whoever did you wrong.

I wonder what happened to people I used to know or even the ones standing in this spot ages ago?

Respect, but don’t expect, and engage in what’s best for you.

I can guarantee you’ve never fallen in love if you can’t realize why they’re called love handles.

It was my movie and I let you be the main character.

I like to hide away in the bathroom and write and write and write, until I just can’t anymore.

Dating’s a puzzle and we’re just looking for our perfect fit without realizing there could be two or three others that were made for them.

We do certain things for certain people and crazy things for crazy people.

I forgave him because what I learned in return was more than what I could ever ask for.

It is what it was and that’s all it should ever be.

It’s so interesting to me how people let bad memories tarnish good ones as if you weren’t two energies that coexisted and intertwined within one another.

I believe people have it all wrong. You can become for someone else without them changing for you. Relationships are give and take and it’s alright to give without taking and appreciating your growing.

I wanted to love everyone, regardless if they loved me.

We romanticize people in our head so much to the point where they actually don’t exist.

We just happened to be in the same moment at the same time and all the coincidences seemed to collide.

Even if he was supposed to be the one, he didn’t end up being the one.

It wasn’t about finding myself as I’ve been here all along. It was about understanding myself.

It was never about sex. It was about our bodies embracing one another and our souls becoming intertwined in warmth and devotion.

We were abstract in a way we shouldn’t have.
But we should have and we were.
Everything just was.


You’re so deep that amnesia couldn’t remove the memories.

I was so good at being bad and so bad at being who I should have been.

 For the first time you understood me, but unfortunately, I knew it was the last time too.

I was crazy. Crazy for you.

Standards are experiencing the past and realizing you’re worth more than that.

I am translucent, not transparent.

You were a little bit of everything: mad, pensive, creative, handsome, delusional, electric, sad and just a person I treasured spending time with.

Fall in love with who they are instead of who they aren’t.

He had the paint and picture, yet didn’t understand the correlation between the two.

Even though he doesn’t have my heart, he always has a place in it.

Only you have the choice to determine how much a person matters.

Tonight I saw a shooting star and for the first time in awhile I wished for myself instead of you.

You didn’t realize, but I won.
I touched, I gained, I felt and I appreciated what most people take for granted.
So yes, I won.

You have to die to become alive and that’s why tragedy seems so beautiful.

Things could always be, but some things will never have been.

I’ve met plenty of beautiful people but I honestly can’t tell you what they look like.

I was shattered glass but you weren’t a repairman.

I fell in love with everything that he was and everything that he wasn’t.

I’m not over it, but I’m past it.

I gave you my mind and body, but the most important thing, I gave you my soul.


You couldn’t tell I was crying because my eyes were closed.

We were so good, but so good only lasts for so long.

If I lived around the corner we would still be together, but honestly, it would’ve been for all the wrong reasons.

I remember little things, like how salt from the ocean eroded your steering wheel. The way your eyes smirked and in reality, every word you ever said to me.
Anyway, I just wanted to say Happy Birthday.

I used to love September, but now it just rhymes with remember.

Some people live just looking for someone to die for.


I only ever asked for the moment, but you seem to think I asked for more.

I want you to look at me the way I look at the ceiling in the night. The way three am knows my name.

Would you recognize your soul if you met it?

I believe we’re supposed to meet people and down the road things are supposed to happen—”
“Not now, but in the future, when the time is right and the idea of a relationship sounds pleasing, maybe we can try it again.”

“If you’re not married by then,” with the biggest smirk upon his face.
“I guess we’ll see.


Love is the intense feeling behind dying and killing for someone other than yourself.

People believe that soulmates are two people that were made for one another. I believe that we were made for someone, but that doesn’t necessarily mean they were made for us.


There ain’t no answer. There ain’t gonna be any answer. There never has been an answer. That’s the answer."

"I have been touched by the souls of some beautiful people, and for that, I am grateful."

"Anyone can find the dirt in someone. Be the one that finds the gold."

"You lose some, you win some. Nothing wrong with that at all."

I think we all have empathy. We may not have enough courage to display it."

You can search throughout the entire universe for someone who is more deserving of your love and affection than you are yourself, and that person is not to be found anywhere. You yourself, as much as anybody in the entire universe deserve your love and affection.

"Not responding is a response - we are equally responsible for what we don’t do."
Jonathan Safran Foer

Thoughts are just thoughts, don’t treat them like reality."

I am afraid I’ll never meet
someone like you again.
The presence of your magic 
is something that I will never 
wish to rid of."

I have memorized 
so many faces after 
finding you in them.

"You can be gorgeous at thirty, charming at forty, and irresistible for the rest of your life."

your letters got sadder. your lovers betrayed you. kid, I wrote back, all lovers betray. it didn’t help. you said you had a crying bench and it was by a bridge and the bridge was over the river and you sat on the crying bench every night and wept for the lovers who had hurt and forgotten you."
Charles Bukowski, Love is a Dog from Hell 

I will never say I love you
but darling I have felt it
for so long.”

I wish I could believe in forgetting you as much as I did in loving you. I wish I fell into forgiveness by chance and found myself past the aftermath of what you left behind.

“The more I had to beg
for your attention
the less I felt 
myself crave it.”

“She will confess
to never caring
enough to ask
me to stay,
still I will always
be in the wrong
for wanting
to walk away.”

"I think as you grow older your christmas list gets smaller and the things you really want for the holidays can’t be bought"

"Never believe that animals suffer less than humans. Pain is the same for them that it is for us. Even worse, because they cannot help themselves."

"It’s a long old road, but I know I’m gonna find the end."
Bessie Smith

"A friend may be waiting behind a stranger’s face."




When the sun meets the sky and you finally find what it is you’re looking for, I’ll no longer be here.
We’ll both be dead and that voice you hear inside your head, I hope it’s dead too. I hope you’ll be at peace and all those words I said meant something.



elliebites:

reynabiddy

I will always love the false image I had of you."

"You drink like you have to forget something."

"yes, yes, yes, yes
I have
been here
before."

…and we drink our 
coffee and pretend
not to look at
each other."

I probably will never see you again. 
I thought I was ready for it, but a sudden heart ache appeared. 
You probably will never see me again also. 
You don’t know it yet. You think you will. You might be sure of it.
I don’t know who of us I pity more.

We could never design a building as beautiful as the trees."

"Sometimes the wrong train will take you to the right station."

"I want you always to remember me. Will you remember that I existed, and that I stood next to you here like this?"

"I guess I’m a little weird. I like to talk to trees and animals. That’s okay though; I have more fun than most people."

The saddest aspect of life right now is that science gathers knowledge faster than society gathers wisdom."

I ended up at this faculty by few circumstance. But overall it was a miracle. At high school I was at the economy class so we never really learned natural sciences. It was very difficult at the beginning, but I made it. No matter how hard it was, I enjoyed these 3 years, especially the 3rd year.
I wil always feel like studying at this faculty was as a gift (from Universe). I shouldn’t studied there. But I did. And I enjoyed it. 
I met amazing people, I learned to stand up for myself as a team leader (6 events), learned to study hard core, learned to do what I fear the most and learned to do whatever it takes, to be the best. 

"So many memories and so little worth remembering, and in front of me—a long, long road without a goal…"
Give. Even when you know you can get nothing back."

"It took me a long time to realize that distance can ruin even the best of intentions."
Nicholas Sparks, The Rescue 

"But sometimes it’s the sunshine that frightens us more than the big black shadows."

The one thing that you have that nobody else has is you. Your voice, your mind, your story, your vision. So write and draw and build and play and dance and live only as you can."

You know I’m old in some ways. In others, well, I’m just a little girl."

You can turn your back on the waves, but there will still be an ocean.




elliebites:

reynabiddy



Pewnych spraw nie można po prostu przegadać, trzeba je sobie raz na zawsze wymilczeć, żeby uniknąć nieporozumień"


Najpierw poprawnie, potem szczerze. Najważniejsze jest zdrowie. Zaraz po pieniądzach. Im dłużej żyję, tym bardziej uważam, że pieniądze są potrzebne do wszystkiego. I do tego, żeby być zdrowym – odpowiednio się odżywiać, wypoczywać i, kiedy zajdzie potrzeba, leczyć.(…) Nawet miłość, która jest ponoć najważniejsza, kiedy ludzie myślą tylko o tym, jak związać koniec z końcem i co wsadzić do garnka, można włożyć między bajki




Bo widzi Pan, pewnego dnia po prostu budzisz się i zdajesz sobie sprawę z tego jak bardzo jesteś żałosny kochając kogoś kto ma Cię gdzieś. I to jest świetny moment by odpuścić.

Umiał wyznawać miłość, niestety, nie bardzo wiedział jak kochać.





(…) czuł, że szczęście polega na tym właśnie, żeby się w życiu raz na zawsze poczuć bezpiecznie, żeby się znaleźć w punkcie, który już nie wymaga podjęcia żadnego ryzyka, żeby sobie znaleźć schron przed światem, a zwłaszcza przed sobą samym.


- Widzisz, myślałem kiedyś, co znaczy być dobrym człowiekiem. Dobry człowiek to taki, który postępuje dobrze, ale również wie, kiedy może dobrze postąpić, a kiedy nie. Rozpoznaję sytuacje, które go przerastają. A jeśli nie rozpozna, skrzywdzi siebie i jeszcze kogoś. Tak niestety jest i nic z tym nie zrobimy. - No dobrze, ale czasem jest tak, że trzeba zaryzykować. Gdy nie wiesz, czy dasz radę, co powinieneś zrobić? Uciec czy się postarać?- Tego nie wiem. Właśnie to jest bardzo trudne. Powiedz mi lepiej, z czym ci będzie łatwiej żyć. Z tym, że odpuściłeś, czy że zawiodłeś?



I to wszystko to jest nic - bo ja już ciebie nie znam. A więc to mi niepotrzebne już. Niepotrzebne żadne zdarzenia, powitania, pożegnania, słowa. Tramwaje i sklepy. I deszcz, i bieganie tymi ulicami po deszczu. To wszystko wcale nie musi być takie ważne. Można to zgubić jednego dnia, zamknąć jednym słowem.



Dotychczas wychodziłam co noc. Wszystko dobrze, póki się chodzi. Byle nie usiąść, bo wtedy sufit spada na głowę.


I tak sobie myślę, że może ludzie używają wspomnień jako paliwa do życia. To czy dane wspomnienie jest ważne czy nie, nie ma znaczenia dla utrzymania się przy życiu. To tylko paliwo. (…) I ważne wspomnienia, i niezbyt ważne wspomnienia, zupełnie nieprzydatne wspomnienia, wszystkie bez różnicy są paliwem.


trzeba żyć i łapać chwilę, nawet ostatnią.



Moje słowa nie odpowiadają moim myślom, a to poniża moje myśli.



Ze wszystkich zmartwień, którymi trapiłam się w życiu, przynajmniej dziewięćdziesiąt procent było niepotrzebnych - często powtarzam to moje ulubione powiedzenie. Może jesteśmy zbyt czujni, zbyt uważni, zbyt zasłuchani w nasze obawy. Wydaje nam się, że zaraz, lada chwila, coś złego może się zdarzyć, a nawet powinno. Może w tych wszystkich obawach gubi się samo życie, jego niepowtarzalny smak. Może słowo ‘lekkomyślność’ oznacza coś dobrego - po prostu lekkość myśli, czyli beztroskę A tak bardzo przecież chcemy, choćby przez chwilę, być bez trosk. Może odwaga to nie jest brak strachu, tylko panowanie nad nim.


czasami myślę o Tobie, cicho, cichuteńko, tak byś nie usłyszał i nie rozkochał w sobie na nowo.


wszystko już było, 
tylko nie my.



To bardzo dziwne, co nam sie przydarzyło. Choć właściwie- nie wydarzyło się nic.


Myślałem ,że się z ciebie wyleczyłem, dopóki ktoś nie kazał mi pomyśleć życzenia i wtedy zrozumiałem, że znów zmarnowałbym je na ciebie.




Ja nie jestem wieloma kobietami. Jestem jedną kobietą i chcę być jedną. I nie chcę wielu mężczyzn. Chcę jednego. Chciałabym.


Przecież tak naprawdę poznajemy się w sytuacjach życiowych, codziennych, a nie na kilkudniowych wyjazdach, nie na gadu-gadu, w mailach czy przez esemesy, gdzie można napisać tak naprawdę wszystko. I uwierzyć we wszystko. (…) Poznanie może dać tylko zwyczajna sytuacja, wspólne posiłki, zakupy, sprzątanie, praca. W końcu to jest życie. A nie internet czy esemesy.



Nie można niczego odkładać na wieczność . wieczność ma ograniczony termin przydatności


Wpadać w depresję z powodu braku faceta - mam osiągnąć równowagę wewnętrzną oraz pewność siebie i czuć się osobą pełnowartościową i kompletną bez faceta, bo to najlepszy sposób, żeby faceta znaleźć.


Jeśli naprawdę ci na kimś zależy, pozostawisz mu swobodę działania, choćby to działanie było nie po twojej myśli. Jeśli naprawdę kogoś kochasz, pozwolisz, by złamał ci serce.


Dlaczego czasami tak trudno jest rozmawiać? Zamiast prośby o wyjaśnienia serwujemy chłodne spojrzenia. Zamiast żartu - milczenie. Potrzebujemy rozmowy jak dobrego jedzenia, a dobrowolnie wybieramy emocjonalna anoreksję. W środku wszystko krzyczy: mów do mnie! obejmij mnie! kochaj mnie! a jedyne co wychodzi z naszych ust, to słowa nie mające żadnego znaczenia.
Desire is the kind of thing that eats you and leaves you starving."

And it’s wrong, wrong, wrong, but we’ll do it anyway cause we love a bit of trouble…"

"How much I missed, simply because I was afraid of missing it."

"You know how it feels right before a tornado hits? I mean when the sky’s still clear, but the wind’s starting to cool off and change direction. You know something’s coming, but you don’t always know what. That’s how things feel to me right now."

"Do you know what a foreign accent is? It’s a sign of bravery."

Nostalgia in reverse, the longing for yet another strange land."

"I thought of sending you a valentine. I started and then I never did. There are not valentines good enough, I said."

"It breaks your heart. It is designed to break your heart. The game begins in the spring, when everything else begins again, and it blossoms in the summer, filling the afternoons and evenings, and then as soon as the chill rains come, it stops and leaves you to face the fall alone. You count on it, rely on it to buffer the passage of time, to keep the memory of sunshine and high skies alive, and then just when the days are all twilight, when you need it most, it stops. Today, October 2, a Sunday of rain and broken branches and leaf-clogged drains and slick streets, it stopped and summer was gone."

half of the shit, you think I dont know, I found out a long time ago"

"Our moment had passed somehow. I was different."


Being on Tumblr all the time gives me such a deluded view of the world. I start believing that everyone is pro-choice, open-minded, have moral compass, care about animals, care about sexism, racism, body shaming, etc, but then I walk out my front door and realise that everyone is still just as moronic as they were two years ago.

"You not wanting me was the beginning of me wanting myself. Thank you."

"It’s ok, I know that we tried. I guess it’s all that matters now."

"And then her heart changed, or at least she understood it; and the winter passed, and the sun shone upon her."

(…) mimo że nie potrafili przestać się nienawidzić ani nie umieli się rozstać. Tysiąc razy odchodzili od siebie w groźbach, ale w gruncie rzeczy byli od siebie uzależnieni, w gruncie rzeczy nie potrafili się od siebie oddalić na krok.

"You may think I’m small, but I have a universe in my head."


and I always thought we’d end up together,
some day, some way, some how
but there’s no way, never, not now.

"Maybe I was being too picky. Maybe I didn’t want to be close to anyone. Maybe I’d just be the type who couldn’t feel love all the way or something."

"Odd how I look around, even knowing, I will never find anything better than what I’ve left behind."

"Sometimes people just want to be happy, even if it’s not real."


I don’t care what anyone says, brilliance is sexy. Intelligence is sexy. Maturity is sexy. Having a mentally stimulating conversation is sexy. Having a great body is good, being fit is great, health is important. Charm is nice. But intelligence, my God, intelligence is absolutely sexy.


"I’ve been searching a long time for something I think I lost.
I felt like I found something when I saw you back there."

"You are too much of everything I dared to imagine."

"Which hurts more? New wounds, which are so horribly painful, or old wounds, that should’ve healed years ago and never did?"

"Destroy my desires, eradicate my ideals, show me something better, and I will follow you."

You have escaped the cage.
Your wings are stretched out.
Now fly."

"She had only one flaw. She was perfect, otherwise she was perfect."

"It’s weird to feel like you miss someone you’re not even sure you know."

"Maybe I’m sad about wanting you. I’m not too comfortable with wanting someone."
"Tomorrow could be the someday, you’ve been waiting for."

You speak almost no words, but your heart screams. And somehow I hear it."



i love my solitude but i was meant to be a lover

The eloquent man is he who is no beautiful speaker, but who is inwardly and desperately drunk with a certain belief.




  The Short Poems Series by Royla Asgha

"It was easy to idealize someone you barely knew."









vogue-is-viral:

Charlize Theron by Mert & Marcus for W Magazine May 2015

kingofcouture:

DIOR HAUTE COUTURE par Raf Simons | FW 2012/13





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