rewolwer / nóż krew / zatruta strzała / wianek z róż / wiatrówka / karabin / miecz // Love is a war full of blood. / You know that feeling when it’s too late to go back? You’ll be my end, yet we’ll never start." // I played with fire. I got burned. // The flower bloomed and faded. The sun rose and sank. The lover loved and went. // "We don't talk... we catch fire." // [bottles up feelings and lets them age for 10 years like a fine wine] // I dared to play with fire and I got burned.

"Strangers are the easiest people to fall in love with. You don’t know their story, you don’t know what they’ve gone through, but the intriguing moment of being present with that person and learning about their stories is what inspires us all. It is one of the most beautiful things to experience in life." 

QUEENSTARRLOVE: Is it possible to love someone who's emotionally unavailable ?

it’s possible to love anyone. the heart will always want what the heart wants. but what’s important is that you know.. loving someone who’s emotionally “unavailable” can.. and will more than likely - lead to hurt. on your end. you’ll end up hurt. and confused. and you’ll start to wonder.. where you went wrong. or you’ll start to wonder if something about you is wrong. you’ll start to question yourself. you’ll start to wonder if you’re unlovable. but you aren’t. and you’ll never not be “loveable”. you just have to pay attention to who it is you’re trying to love. and the damage they may cause on your heart. a person who’s “emotionally unavailable” is probably going to unintentionally change you.. and you don’t need that. love someone who’s eager to love you back. love someone who’s going to protect your heart. love someone who wants to show you off. never settle for someone who doesn’t “see” you the way you deserve to be seen.

"Life is a lot more simple than we like to make it. we run from those who love us and exhaust ourselves loving people who don’t. Please - don’t over exhaust yourself by expressing your feelings over and over to someone who just doesn’t get it or care to. You’ll end up empty."

You promised me nothing, but I felt something.



How to kill someone:
Pretend they don’t exist,
Act like everything you ever said to them was a lie.



- akwarium - albo puste, albo z milionami rybek, dużo glonów, / 'my friends say there are other fish  I say 'fuck you, he wasn't only a fish for me, he was my whole aquarium'

duże płótno. Na nim namalowana ja, w identycznej fryzurze i sukience jak stojąca obok, uśmiechnięta, szczęśliwa, obok ja z pędzlem, cała we łzach.

Don’t trust what you see, even salt looks like sugar.

Nieszczęśliwa i nieodwzajeniona miłość otwiera przed Tobą wiele nowych drzwi - np. do lodówki i do pijalni!

The secret of joy is the mastery of pain.

Perfectionism is self-abuse of the highest order.

How do I turn into sunshine?
I want to be so warm,
so warm,
I forget what being cold
feels like.

The best people possess a feeling for beauty, the courage to take risks, the discipline to tell the truth, the capacity for sacrifice. Ironically, their virtues make them vulnerable; they are often wounded, sometimes destroyed.



i saw something special in you that i don’t want anyone else to look at.



Life is short, so it should be filled with flowers.

Be picky about who you keep around you. Personalities, words, and traits rub off naturally.

I like how sleeping next to someone means more than sex sometimes, the body’s way of saying ‘I trust you to be by my side at my most vulnerable time,’ you have no defenses when you are asleep, you tell no lies.





Time stays long enough for those who use it.

Millions of quotes trying to explain what love is. But, there’s no way to define it, because love is based on emotion not by definition.



When one door closes, another opens; but we often look so long and so regretfully upon the closed door that we do not see the one which has opened for us.

It is not that I’m so smart. But I stay with the questions much longer.

Maybe you had to leave in order to really miss a place; maybe you had to travel to figure out how beloved your starting point was.

Sometimes we love with nothing more than hope. Sometimes we cry with everything except tears.

She is something new, something hopeful. Like spring to my deep winter.

two people can sleep in the same bed and still be alone when they close their eyes

Poison cannot penetrate the hand that is free of wounds.

Choose your friends and mates, not by the money in their bank account, creed, ethnicity, or color; instead, choose character, actions, heart, and soul. When we bleed, we bleed the same color

"People really don’t know what they have until they lose it. So we all often consider leaving on a long journey just to prove our worth to others."

"If you’re having a hard time letting go, just think that if they wanted to stay, they’d still be there."

"I realized, he’s my first thought in the morning, my last thought at night, I can’t even finish a sentence because I’m stopped by the image of his eyes in my mind, I realized, I’m falling and I don’t want to. You know that feeling when it’s too late to go back? You’ll be my end, yet we’ll never start."

"Don’t stress over what could’ve been, chances are if it should’ve been, it would’ve been, and would be."

"This isn’t lust. Lust wants, does the obvious… Love is greedier. Love wants round-the-clock care; protection; rings, vows, joint accounts; scented candles on birthdays; life insurance. Babies. Love’s a dictator."

"Its not up to me anymore. If you want me in your life, you’ll find a way to put me there."

More dreams, more adventures.

"What I needed seemed to be absent everywhere."

"There are so many things that can make you happy. Don’t focus too much on things that make you sad."

"Sometimes…real love is silent as well as blind."

"Lately, in the shower I have been thinking more than I have been singing. I think about you."

There’s so much more to life than finding someone who will want you, or being sad over someone who doesn’t. There’s a lot of wonderful time to be spent discovering yourself without hoping someone will fall in love with you along the way, and it doesn’t need to be painful or empty. You need to fill yourself up with love. Not anyone else. Become a whole being on your own. Go on adventures, fall asleep in the woods with friends, wander around the city at night, sit in a coffee shop on your own, write on bathroom stalls, leave notes in library books, dress up for yourself, give to others, smile a lot. Do all things with love, but don’t romanticize life like you can’t survive without it. Live for yourself and be happy on your own. It isn’t any less beautiful, I promise. 

20 THINGS YOU SHOULD DO EVERYDAY
1. Wake up earlier. Not only does this improve productivity but it also gives you more time to make a good, hearty breakfast.
2. Make your bed. Let’s be real, being welcomed to a tidy bed after a long day at work/school (or a long day in general) is probably the best feeling anyone will ever experience.
3. If you want, spend a little more time on your appearance. Take some time choosing an outfit, applying make up or whatever. Do what helps you boost your confidence and self-esteem.
4. Stay hydrated, folks. Keep a bottle of water with you wherever you go.
5. Stretch everyday or start yoga (or do both, why not?)
6. Create a playlist consisting of songs that make you happy and listen to it. Listen to songs for the mood you want to be in, instead of the mood you are in.
7. Compliment at least one person per day. This could be an acquaintance, co-worker, class mate, stranger, whoever!
8. Use your manners. If someone holds the door for you, lets you go first etc, they did it voluntarily and didn’t have to do it, so a “thank you” wouldn’t hurt.
9. Eat your fruit and vegetables and always choose the healthy version over the junk food.
10. Have a good laugh. Catch up with friends, watch some ‘Parks and Recreation’, go see some stand-up comedy, reminisce about funny moments that have happened to you. You don’t need to be a doctor to know that humour has many benefits.
11. Be optimistic. Always look at the positives. There’s no point on focusing on the negatives because that isn’t going to help anyones mood at all.
12. Exercise. It doesn’t have to be anything to intense. A run around the block, a walk with your dog or even a ‘Just Dance’ session will do the job.
13.Bring a book/magazine or collect the daily newspaper with you. Spend you spare time reading.
14. Try and learn something new everyday. This can either be an interesting fact you saw online or a new skill someone taught you.
15. Help others when you are able to. Help your classmates with school work or offer to help you struggling neighbour lift those heavy objects.
16. Stop procrastinating. No matter how unmotivated you are to, push yourself and complete what you need to complete. Do what you gotta do. You know you’ll love yourself for doing it.
17. Drink some tea, because that stuff is goooooood (and also beneficial).
18.Make time to do things that help you relax, whether that’s painting, having baths, doing you nails or going for a run.
19. Don’t dwell on your mistakes, but instead grow and learn from them.
20. And lastly, be kind to yourself. If you love who you are, everyone else will
" 

"I used to tell you all my secrets and now, you’re one of them." 

"Just as it hurts to feel unloved, somehow it also hurts to be loved. Expectations come with love and we cannot always fulfill them. Sometimes this is what hurts the most." 

"the difference between you and me is that I free my time to talk to you while you talk to me in your free time." 

eclipse of heart - bonnietyler 

"You have so many layers, that you can peel away a few, and everyone’s so shocked or impressed that you’re baring your soul, while to you it’s nothing, because you know you’ve twenty more layers to go.

"To era, w której mężczyzna nie powie, że przeprasza, że tęskni, że popełnił błąd. To era, w której mężczyzna wzdycha, wzrusza ramionami i mówi "trudno"."

Piotr Adamczyk 

"Lubię, gdy mówisz, że mnie kochasz, bo przecież są bajki, z których nigdy się nie wyrasta

Wymierają nie tylko gatunki zwierząt, wymierają także całe gatunki uczuć."

odmienne potrzeby i priorytety rodzą odmienne podejścia 

"Po co być sobą, skoro żyjemy w takich czasach, że każdy może być kim zechce?"

When you love someone, you love them in every way.
You love their insecurities. You love their imperfections. You love the way they walk, they laugh, they stare at you. You think of them the time you close your eyes at night and every time you wake up in the morning.
When you love someone, you get mad at them. You get hurt. You hurt them as well. You put scars on them, and if you love them so much you try to heal those scars. You try to make them feel better. You make them feel more loved.

When you love someone, you dont just give up on them. It gets harder each day. But then you love them and no matter how hard it is, you stay because it is still harder without them. So you try to fix everything.
When you love someone, you wonder whether they have eaten, they went home safely, whether they are feeling alright or bad. When you love someone you want them to be always in good condition.
When you love someone, you want them to stay with you forever.
When you love someone, you wipe away their tears, you hold them as long as they wanna be held.
When you love someone you just dont let them go away.
You dont let them feel like they are nothing.
When you love someone you make them feel your love.

It is terrifying to think that one day you will trust somebody enough to let them see you naked. You will undress and remind them that you’ve stretch marks and birth marks and scars from having chicken pox when you were little and scars from all of the other things now. You will blush thousands of shades of red, painting yourself as a rose losing its petals. And that person - that person will take it all in. And I wonder if they will reassure you. But mostly, I wonder if they will even see anything worth reassuring you about. I hope they see each freckle on your back as if it’s a star and you are the whole universe to them.







Uczucie jest albo go nie ma.
Jeśli wątpimy w nie – także go nie ma.
Jeśli ktoś wątpi w swoje uczucie do nas – także go nie ma.
Jeśli ktoś nie chce być tylko nasz – także go nie ma.

Nigdy nie byłem i nie będę w skomplikowanym związku, bo w moim związkach zawsze był dialog. Nigdy nie miałem wątpliwości co do uczuć partnerek, a gdyby mi choć jedna powiedziała „nie wiem co do ciebie czuję”, wyrzucibym ją za drzwi, bo jeśli ktoś z „uwielbiam cię” zmienia się na „nie wiem…” to obraża moje uczucia i marnuje mój czas. Tam, gdzie jest zwątpienie, jest także koniec związku – a przynajmniej do czasu aż partner zrozumie, że błądził i jednak chce być z nami. Ale to musi zrozumieć sam, już nie mając we mnie oparcia, bo ja nie dałbym oparcia kobiecie, która zwątpiła w swoje uczucia do mnie. Sama weszła w to gówno, sama z niego wyjdzie, a jeśli nie? Cóż, jest na tym świecie jeszcze bardzo dużo kobiet, które warto bzyknąć, a od kobiety wątpiącej w uczucia do mnie, lepsza będzie pierwsza lepsza lampucera z twarzą tak piękną, że nic tylko ją bić i słuchać jak prosi o jeszcze.
A wy sobie żyjcie w tym waszym skomplikowanym świecie.

hope your days get softer from here on out. hope the hurt lessens and the dark turns to light. you deserve gentleness and good love. I hope it finds you soon.

I get way too sensitive when I get attached to someone. I can detect the slightest changed in the tone of their voice, and suddenly I’m spending all day trying to figure out what I did wrong.

it's a joke, not a dick, dont take it so hard

Don’t turn people into your home, or you’ll end up homeless.





Maybe I’ll be the holes in her sweatshirt girl
Maybe I’m the one you remember because
I couldn’t get through the morning without
my third cup of coffee
You could remember me by soft lips
or by the shoes I wear so much that my footprint is stamped into the soles
I’m gonna be the sun freckled day dream
of a coffee kisser, you know?
I’m gonna be the one you think of as pink lips and arms wrapped around your waist
Singing yellow submarine too loud for the fucking neighbors
(but it made you laugh so I always started singing it louder)
I’m not saying I’m your forever girl
I can’t burn like that
but I can be the taste at the back of your mouth
in the last drop of your third coffee
before your 9 to 5

I can be your distant memory
if you’re willing to be mine



You’ll regret not kissing her a lot more than you’ll regret kissing her.

good people drink good beer.















The flower bloomed and faded. The sun rose and sank. The lover loved and went.

Life hack: If you’re not interested in someone, tell them. Stringing that person along and/or cheating on them is one of the shittiest things you can do in life. Be considerate and let that person find someone in life that will appreciate them like they should be appreciated.

if a girl wants to talk to you every minute of the day, wants to talk on the phone to hear your voice, wants you to send her pictures because she likes seeing your face, wants to introduce you to her friends and family, willing to travel distance for you, wants to smother you with affection, waits for you no matter how long, sticks by your side no matter how much wrong you’ve done

like dude she fucking loves you man dont fucking waste a good girl like that 

She dreams more often than she sleeps.

women's shampoos be like: coconut; honey/milk; rose; tropical fruits; aloe vera
men's shampoos be like: ARCTIC ICE; DARKNESS; GUNS; TESTOSTERONE; PAIN

I want a love where I don’t have to question if they really love me. Like without a doubt in my mind I’ll already know that the love is there. That’s what I want.




 





















i think the worst feeling ever is when someone means more to you than you mean to them

You will never find time for anything. If you want the time, you must make it. 

Never go on trips with anyone you do not love. Ernest Hemingway

who hurt you so bad that you started changing who you used to be and now became this insane monster who is addicted to cigarettes and little highs from fucking boys who whisper you’re beautiful down your fucking throat you used to brush them off and not let what people say consume and take advantage of you now you are sitting here with your phone in your hand waiting for him to text you…. stop waiting for him, the fact that you need to wait and pray for a text back is proof that instead of smoking and fucking to numb the pain… treat yourself and block his numbe

Honestly , no man is worth me right now.
I’m too loyal. I’m too caring . I’m too beautiful. They don’t know how to treat me.

That “ignoring each other” game can turn into a “never hearing from me again” game real fast

i love boys but only as a concept 





















Imma start charging people for hurting my feelings $3 a minute

there are ways to be beautiful that don’t involve your appearance

I’m so easily revitalized by small, loving gestures

 

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If a poem hasn’t ripped apart your soul; you haven’t experienced poetry


























My Uber driver is literally playing a sex playlist right now

Your actions are your true business card. 

i wonder if my cat would get jealous if she knew how many other cats i reblogged

(via heart)

i thought i was strong enough to carry something…but now i think i broke my hand and shoulder

People fuck
you up
everyday

I wanted to be the light in your darkness. 

I became the shadow instead.

sometimes you just need to do things that make you happy, things for yourself, self care is not selfish ever, just be kind to people. everyone else is doing everything that makes them happy so why can’t you?

I overthink too many situations(via 72chambers)

It is not down in any map; true places never are.

It hurts to wait for someone who’s never coming back again.

You have a butt and I have a pair of hands gosh what a coincidence

Kiss like you mean it.
Remember their birthday, every year.
Make them feel special, even on a monday night with a forecast of rain.
Befriend their Mom, she will tell you stories that no one else can.
Order each other food at restaurants, just to try something new.
Shower together, you may learn to love your body, by seeing the desire and passion in your partners eyes. 
Leave notes when you go out for the day, it will make you feel safe.
Watch the Breakfast Club, and pump up your fist in the end, even if it only happens once.
Care for each other when sick, soup is the easiest thing to make.
Make chocolate covered strawberries in summer simply because you can.
Go fishing with their Dad, and listen to what he has to say, even if he may have trouble saying it.
Give each other little presents, even if its just a rose on friday the 13th.
Get angry, but forgive.
Love, love with all you’ve got. 







The frozen fire burning their every thought of him.
She saw it all happen, slowly. 
She let it happen.









Remember all you've forgotten











Boys will still make you crazy and complain that you’re crazy.

Less relationship goals, more self goals.

That’s what happens when you love someone…you notice and notice and notice.

Everything I’ve never done, I want to do with you.

Note to self: “I love you” does not mean “I won’t ever leave you.

Communicate. Even when it’s uncomfortable or uneasy. One of the best ways to heal, is simply getting everything out.

He was the sun, the moon and the stars in my life,
while I was just the grey clouds in his.

I, too, find the flower beautiful in its outward appearance. But a deeper beauty lies concealed within.

Do yourself a favor and learn how to walk away. When a connection starts to fade, Learn how to let it go. When a person starts to mistreat you, learn how to move on.. to something and someone better. Don’t waste your energy trying to force something that isn’t meant to be.. Because the truth is.. for every one person who doesn’t value you - there are tons more waiting to love you better. Do better.

"despite controversy, you are supposed to keep going. you are supposed to keep growing. you are supposed to evolve. you are supposed to leave the past behind you and keep moving forward. you should always be eager to break away from the roots that hold you back - so you can plant seeds elsewhere. 
plant yourself everywhere. 
blossom.. the way you’re meant to. 
the way you deserve to. 
you won’t regret it." 

Never close your lips to those whom you have already opened your heart

"open your heart. let people love you. let people see you. welcome in those who are eager to learn you - as you are. with all your flaws and your many scars. help people understand your heart. help people love you for all that you truly are. don’t hide away the parts of you that make you - you. everything you go through is meant to make you even more beautiful, essentially. don’t shut down on someone who’s wanting to bring the light out - from within you. please, allow them to. 
you deserve that."



"sometimes you have to let people go because they’re toxic for you. you have to let people go because they mean you no good. sometimes you have to sacrifice the temporary happiness that people will give you - in convenience.. and you have to chase an unconditional happiness only you can give you. you have to let them go because you’ve forgotten your worth and you have to regain a sense of self. let them go because they continuously take - always leaving you empty.. always leaving you uncertain. let them go because while you’re learning yourself & seeking fulfillment - they’re unapologetically draining you."

"you’re supposed to be wherever you are - right now, in this moment. don’t fault yourself for not being anywhere other than “here”. focus on right now. focus on today. make the best out of everything you’re already involved with. the future will slowly present itself as you begin to appreciate all that you have and all that you are in this moment. please, don’t rush life. anything that’s meant for you, will always be.. eventually. be patient." —Reyna Biddy

YOULOVEJALYN: is it wrong to love someone who's done you wrong?

“wrong”? no. you could never be wrong for loving someone. you could never be wrong for any emotions toward any person - regardless of what they put you through. some things we lack control over.. however, if you feel wrong.. and you don’t feel right.. why hurt yourself trying to make it all work? why allow yourself to continuously face your insecurities and question if this is all “worth it”? why keep someone around who doesn’t mind hurting you? at the end of each day, we all make our own decisions. no one can or should make you feel bad for caring for someone.. but at some point you have to realize that a person who’s willing to do you wrong.. is wrong for you.

08:24"I’m not attracted to anyone who isn’t excited about me. I want to be shown love consistently. I want to be shown off, celebrated, and reminded of my beauty. I don’t want to surround myself around anyone who doesn’t make me feel anything. I want my presence craved any time I go missing. I want my spirit full in return of me giving you everything. The way I love is everything but ordinary. The way my heart is set up - I fill people until I’m left empty. Unintentionally, I will shower you with all of me until I’m left with nothing. All I want is for someone to feel what I feel and love how I love - someone who’s eager to give me mutuality - without me having to question whether or not they’re meant for me." —

BAMBAM617: How do you just not care anymore?

there’s no magic to “not caring”. you just don’t. you care as hard and as much as you can until one day you decide it isn’t worth it.. or you decide you just can’t anymore. or you decide you deserve better.. theres no way to just shut off your emotions or to silence them. no matter how much or how hard we try. but time heals all. and believe me, you’ll move on when its time.

"it’s easy for me to speak about valuing yourself and letting people go because I live this. I live in this light where I refuse to let people take advantage of me. I live in a way where, if you do not add to me and my existence.. I don’t want you around. period." — Reyna Biddy

"Give people time. Give people space. Don’t beg anyone to stay. Let them roam. What’s meant for you will always be yours." — Reyna Biddy

SERENITY-JU: How did you know you were in love?

i felt good. all the time. i smiled a lot more often. i felt more often. i stopped holding a guard up. i became careless. i became fearless. i stopped questioning things and just let it all be. and i loved freely. i loved with no conditions. i loved regardless. i picked this person over and over again. i picked to love them, before and above anyone else. and at some point.. i just knew. i knew that if someone like this could change me and love me into a better ‘me’, there was no other explanation. i love and have loved them deeper than i thought i’d ever allow them to. i’ve loved them deep enough for them to willingly help me grow. I’ve loved them into loving me enough.. to allow me to help them grow with me. that to me, is being “in” love. wanting to help someone love, harder and harder. wanting to see someone smile, harder and harder. wanting to help someone grow.


"You deserve to be happy. You deserve to be emotionally spoiled. Stay away from anyone who only cares to make you happy in their convenience." —Reyna Biddy (via deeplifequotes)

"stop begging and fighting for people to love you the right way. stop investing time in people who don’t mind if you stay or leave." — Reyna Biddy

"while you’re busy chasing someone who doesn’t care to be caught - someone is praying on your arrival. someone is waiting for your love." — Reyna Biddy (via kushandwizdom)

"you deserve to be with someone who empowers you. find you someone who will love like you. find you someone special. find you someone who ain’t just cute. find you someone who thinks deeper than – who leaves impacts on your heart. find you someone who cares. about the little things.. someone who pays attention. find you someone who’s consistent. someone who reaches out even in the moments when you’re distant. find you someone who listens. find you someone who won’t neglect what you told them about that one time when you loved too hard and how you can’t afford to be hurt again. you deserve to be with someone who never wants to see you hurt again. find you a lover who’s a friend too. who comes to you first because nobody else’s opinion matters. find someone who nobody else compares to. find you someone who loves you like no one else do." — Reyna Biddy

you can tell a lot about a woman by the way she handles herself after a break up."

you deserve better than to be called “pretty”
you deserve better than to get upset and go online to act petty.
you deserve better than to be on “hold”.
you deserve better than to hold onto someone who’s already let go.
you deserve better than to be held in convenience.

you deserve better than to keep your relationship “lowkey” because..
“someone might see”
and
someone “might ask questions”
and someone might wonder why someone like you would rather hang around a boy who wont commit when someone like them is ready to love you.
is ready to learn you.

ready to show you -
who you are.
paint you a picture of you through his eyes and convince you that you are indeed art.

show you the way he’s mesmerized the way your broken heart still beats
the way it flutters when whole eyes and yours meet
the way it silences to express its beat.
show you how much he realizes you need healing from this hurting.
i know you.
i know something about what you’ve been through.
i know some days feel like heavy weights and hearts with protection that you’ve failed to break through and i know what it’s like to put heart break on hold for the love of your life who forgot relationships take two.
i know he forgot to say “i love you, too”
i know he forgot to stay faithful.
i know you forgot about the time you promised yourself you’d do better but every time you try to leave something keeps pulling you back - telling you
this is the best you’ll ever have in life.
so you stay the night. - - - every night he misses you after remembering your head and how good it works.
and how good it feels to know no matter how bad it gets - you’ll always come back.
I know you.
and he does too.
we know the way your stomach drops at the thought of him loving someone better.
so he knows you wont search for better
and I know you deserve better.
I know you deserve better than to have your spirit bruised.
I know you deserve someone who empowers you.
I know just how beautiful you could be if only you could see your own value.
I know you.
you’re a collection of paradox’s
you’re a compilation of food for thought
you’re a woman - before all things.
you’re more a lover than a fighter - after all it seems..
you’re special.
and I know you know you deserve better than to settle

"I remember the day I gave up and stopped chasing love..
then it came to me."

By no means am I fearless,
i’m just as scared as you.. I just know fear poisons love - so I choose to be alive. If that means to be brave, so be it.

"My goal has always been to be so unconditionally loving that it fills the hearts of others who are empty from a lack of." — Reyna Biddy

"sometimes your heart will hurt. sometimes your smile will ache. sometimes your light will dim. sometimes your spirit will break. sometimes your entire world will come crashing down with no warning, and no signs.. but no matter how destroyed you feel - you have to be willing to dig deep inside of yourself to find some ambition to get you back right. you have to look out for you. you have to let go. you have to place your focus primarily on YOU. nothing about losing what’s familiar feels good.. but uncomfortable places can be beautiful. growth is beautiful. you are beautiful. you shouldn’t have to wait around and pray for someone to love you. you should love you. you should let go - because nothing worth holding onto will ever destroy you. and holding on is destroying you. trying to love someone into loving you - is destroying you. let go because you have to get a hold of you. you have to retrace your steps and figure out where you let YOU go. you have to take time to yourself to reflect on when and where you lost yourself. you have to let go of what no longer is - and accept what may have never been.. then you have to pick yourself back up. you have to release any negativity clouding your mind and you have to rid yourself of hopeful feelings. cleanse your soul. listen to your intuition. learn yourself. let go of any bad habits you’ve picked up along your journey. and start over. no matter how bad or how much it hurts.. let go and start over. holding on is destroying you." —Reyna Biddy

save me.. like you promised you would. like the promise of us after our first conversation and how i just knew you could. save me.. like I still know you can. sometimes I wonder where you go and if you ever need a hand.

sometimes I wonder if you see me drowning and if all along this - was your plan.
and if you’re waiting for me, patiently, to say I can’t breathe anymore.

between these mixed signals and temporary lines, I can’t breathe anymore. Im waist deep praying there’s a way you can even see me anymore.. because I can’t seem to see me without you, I can’t continue to wonder if you’ll ever leave anymore..
save me.. cause I can’t dream anymore. I can’t fantasize about another love like you ain’t kiss my soul into a happy place. like you ain’t brought my life into better days. I can’t give this up like we don’t do more than fuck like we don’t really make love like our souls aint just one like this is something you can control like you ain’t really in love like this was ever a story about two fools in lust.
come on..

if you can’t remember the forever’s you’ve placed in me.. look at me. look at the woman you’ve made me. you can’t abandon the home you’ve made in me. look me in my eyes and promise me - you don’t crave me. let me know if I’m crazy.
I told myself I’d stop writing about people and then here you come. you made me question if all the others were ever really worthy.. and how I couldn’t not write about the person who fits me completely and perfectly. you fixed me completely and perfectly..

you know I love to see how much you love to see me loving the way you love me.. it is all love right?
I know.. somedays, you get afraid, right?
to have my heart, to be my rib.
to break some days, and go through shit.
it takes a warrior and a special kind of bravery to deal with someone like me.
but I’ve decided I can’t allow you to have cold feet. I swear I’ll be patient but I know you know you were made for me.
please, don’t walk away from me.
not after you promised you would save me..

from the sound of things.. i’d say you’re afraid. you’re afraid to be forgotten, you’re afraid to be neglected.. you’re afraid to be left out. and often times you feel rejected. you don’t feel important because you feel everyone around you could survive - and be happy - without you. jealousy is one of the strongest forms of hate and most importantly the most toxic form of self hate. when you begin to make a habit out of being envious of others and their happiness, especially when it excludes you, it’s because deeper within you aren’t happy. deeper within you always feel like you’re missing out or you aren’t loved the way others are. if a friend of yours is going out, with another friend of theirs, without you.. that has nothing to do with you. allow them to be happy. you should be happy for them - all while working on your own self happiness. the feeling of wanting to “hide” or remove your own self from these situations is again, another form of fear. you’d rather hurt your own self, by excluding yourself, before others hurt you by excluding you. but i promise.. it isn’t personal. you have alot of healing to do. you have alot of reflecting to do. you have to dig deep, into yourself, into your heart, and you have to find the source of where this self hate comes from. then you have to make peace with it. you have to forgive whatever it is that damaged you and made you lose your security and you have to let it go. then rebuild from there. with a clean slate, a calm mind and an open heart.

Dear Self,
you have to be careful with who you entertain and who you choose to share yourself with because not just anyone will appreciate all of who you are. you have to learn to love yourself enough to not tolerate disrespect, disloyalty, and wishy washy feelings. if a person doesn’t value you - move on. you are not obligated to hold down any person who constantly holds you back. that isn’t loyalty, that’s stupidity. when you seek fulfillment in others you end up lost when they leave.. so its important that you know yourself before getting involved with someone else. remember that you were created in God’s image and you were designed to be different from everyone else. DO NOT compare yourself. you’re beautiful. you’re clever. there are so many men who search for you in every woman they meet.. NO ONE is YOU and THAT is your power." — Reyna Biddy

This time last year I was completely broken. I had just lost a love that I thought was endless. I watched the person i thought was meant for me, move on to love someone new. I had no one to talk to. I had no one to turn to. Too many people telling me to get over it, and not enough even trying to be understanding of the position i was in. everyone thought i was as strong as i thought i was. or as strong as i thought i use to be. I became more and more of an introvert. I stayed to myself. I battled my own thoughts. I let nothing out. I was working a job that made me literally miserable. I was in school, trying to figure it out.. trying to figure out what i wanted for my life. my parents were going through a break up, that i probably should have been ready for.. but the timing was off. my heart wasn’t ready for any form of abandonment. and not too long after, my best friend decided to move to Australia. i was lost. and i had no idea what i wanted.. i had no ambition to do anything more than the bare minimum.. even if i could figure out what i wanted to do with my life. i was weak. but what i remember the most - was one night, getting super faded and hopping in the shower. I was on my tubs floor crying my heart out. I kept asking “Why God? Why me?” I thought I was a victim. I thought I was being played with. I thought I was being punished, nonetheless. But then I became angry. So angry that almost immediately, my life changed. After a half hours worth of tears, I completely shut down and had an outer body experience. I looked at myself, from the outside in and said “What the fuck are you crying for?” followed with “You thought this shit would be easy?” and everything changed. I got out of the shower, looked myself in the mirror and prayed. My entire tone changed, from “why are you doing this to me?” to “I get it now. I may not know.. I may not see.. the reasoning behind everything, but I’m trusting.” That night I washed away all the sorrow, all the pity, all the doubt, and all the fear every bone in me could carry. That night I won the biggest battle ever thrown at me. and I kept on. Day by day I got stronger. I forced myself to become wiser. I kept busy at all hours trying to do almost anything i could to keep from allowing myself to wander back to that broken state of mind. I read book after book. I fell in love with characters. I hiked mountain after mountain, ran mile after mile.. I fell in love with my physical. then.. i set goals. i became hungry. hungry for change. hungry for growth. i became eager to feel love from within. i wanted nothing more than to love my own self, more than anyone could ever love me.. and also.. more than i could ever love anyone in return. then i started writing. in the process, and in the midst, of everything i became so lost in my journey that heartbreak was so far in the past i forgot what hurt felt like. I forgot what it felt like, to feel anyone or anything deeply. then i remembered. i remembered that night I asked God “why me?” and the deepest chills ran through my body. although it took months for me to receive any sort of response, when i did.. i was ready. and i was willing to take it in.. and i was willing to understand it. why me? well because i have the power of tongue. i have the power of vulnerability. i have the power to act so transparently that people forget i’m human too. everyone forgets i’m normal, too. ‘me’ because i lived my life asking God to “use” me. I spoke these words. I asked God for a purpose, and i asked that in fulfilling that purpose he stand by me. he walk with me. so here i am. one year later. in love. with a man who i mean everything to. happier. than i’ve ever been. financially stable. spiritually balanced. emotionally ready. and open. for any and everything. releasing “I love my love” was never ever supposed to be the breakthrough of my career. my intentions were never to sell a million copies.. all i wanted was to tell my stories, by doing what i started first. writing spoken word. writing how i felt. telling stories about the heart aches i’ve been through. the shit that I’ve seen. let people know that my background isn’t peaches and cream. i come from a fucked up situation, but look at where it brought me. seriously, look at where life brought me. i heal hearts. i ease minds. i inspire. i’m living out my dreams. no more shitty jobs. no more cruel bosses. no more studying for classes that will never and have never ever filled my soul. I’m fucking happy dude. who would’ve known.

"don’t be afraid to distance yourself from everyone + everything and recoup. sort out your thoughts. listen to your heart. breathe. read a book. write about how much your life has sucked - then write about how much you can’t wait to see the positive changes. relearn yourself. accept all the hurt you’ve been through. forgive anyone and everyone who’s hurt you. even if that means doing it within, and never physically or verbally reaching out. let go. & rejuvenate. take a step away from the chaos, and find peace. within." — Reyna Biddy

"I don’t wanna be your favorite,

I wanna be your only." 

"At what point does a person become exhausted from emotionally exhausting someone else? someone who loves them? someone who’s intentions are only to be there?" — Reyna Biddy

"It’s simple to lose yourself in the process of valuing someone else too much.. it’s easy to neglect yourself in the midst of loving someone else too hard.. but don’t forget you’re special too.. You deserve to be shown off, too. You deserve to be loved in return, too." — Reyna Biddy

"I’ve been through a lot. I’ve seen and felt a whole lot. i’ve been at the lowest of lows and still, i’ve never considered folding. giving up was never an option for me. I’m too curious to know what life will reward me with at the end of this insane journey, to not continue growing." — Reyna Biddy

"your presence is precious. your heart is gold. your spirit is infectious. please, never surround yourself with people who allow you to forget that." —Reyna Biddy

the pain always goes away. it never just stays. everything heals over time. you just have to allow yourself to give it time. to begin healing, you focus less on this person, and more on you. you take time to learn yourself. learn what you like, learn what makes you happy, read more, exercise more, take longer showers, pray more often, meditate whenever you get a second too, listen to music that brings you to a calm place. eventually.. life will run its course and you’ll find yourself, and then you’ll find someone to love you better.

12:10"Men have a habit of saying shit they don’t mean then never prove it." 

"I remember you.. down to the promises you played me with. I remember loving you the way I never knew I was capable. I remember hearing your name and loving the butterfly’s that soared my stomach shortly after. I remember you’d call me to say you missed me.. sometimes I wonder if you’ll ever call again. I remember asking you for truths and believing your lies instead. I remember you in a way I promised myself I wouldn’t the day you left. I remember all my good bye and wishing you well messages. I remember us. More than I wish I did." — Reyna Biddy

"It took me some time to see that not everyone will stay. But not everyone is supposed to.. And it’s not always because of you. it’s more than often - because of them. But that’s okay because.. not everyone is meant for you. When we involve ourselves with people, its inevitable to risk our heart - knowing theres a possibility that it may get broken or misused.. but the beauty in life is.. sometimes we take that chance and everything works out the way we hoped it would.. or we learn that it worked out the way that it should. It’s okay to involve yourself in a relationship and have absolutely no expectations - because regardless of where it may go… you’ll still grow. Not everyone you lose is technically a loss.. more than often it’s a blessing in disguise. It’s up to us to change our attitudes and perception of things in order to see the situation for what its really worth. Sometimes we have to step outside of our heart.. and focus on the true meaning of it all. Sometimes we rush people into things and sometimes we, ourself, put ourselves in situations we aren’t a thousand percent sure of or ready for. Give people time. Give people space. Don’t beg anyone to stay. Let them roam. What’s meant for you will ALWAYS be yours. In the mean time.. Work on yourself. Learn yourself. Figure out what you do and do not want from a partner and/or relationship.. so if ever - they do come back.. you know that you’re not the kind of person who deserves to be put on layaway.. you’re not the kind of person who deserves to wait.. you’re not the kind of person who deserves to commit just to be left abandoned.. and if you aren’t ready or aren’t sure.. they deserve to wait on you to make sure that this is what you want.. and if you decide this isn’t what you want after all.. close the door behind you. Someone better will come knocking sooner than later. Be patient." —

"In any situation, you’ve got to remember to ask yourself, “Am I Happy?” If the answer isn’t Absolutely, distance yourself &try something new" —Reyna Biddy (via kushandwizdom)

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hiszpanie są tak przystojni, że do listy wakacyjnych must-have'ów dorzućmy okulary zawężające pole widzenia, aby ułatwić wyzwanie dochowywania wierności
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