Don’t fall in love with the moment and think you’re in love with the girl. // memory is just another form of imagination // The ego hurts you like this: you become obsessed with the one person who does not love you. blind to the rest who do. // —and yet it must matter because you keep on trying or having to keep on trying and then all of a sudden it’s all over. // follow me if you dare // Her absence is like the sky, spread over everything." - C.S Lewis, A Grief Observed // "You not wanting me was the beginning of me wanting myself. Thank you." // no longer watering dead plants, only planting new seeds.

"Just like you mistook lust for love, you have mistaken being alone with loneliness. So I’m fine. Thank you for asking."

The trick is not how much pain you feel - but how much joy you feel. Any idiot can feel pain. Life is full of excuses to feel pain, excuses not to live, excuses, excuses, excuses."

"You messaged me out of the blue.
I wasn’t looking for anyone,
In fact I was too busy running from someone else,
But I slowed down enough to reply
“Hey.”
You slowly became my good morning text,
My drunken phone call,
My tearful FaceTime when work had wrung me out like a dirty tea towel,
And you were there,
Always." 

" People go
but how
they left
always stays."

—read that somewhere the other day and it made me tear up. 

We lose people and then we find new ones. That’s how it works."

"Give people time. Give people space. Don’t beg anyone to stay. Let them roam. What’s meant for you will always be yours."

"Be like the ocean. Breathtaking to look at, strong enough to not be destroyed, and gentle enough so others find comfort in your presence."

he reaches over and he touches you, like a prayer for which no words exist, and you feel your heart taking root in your body, like you’ve discovered something you don’t even have a name for.

Travel is good for the Soul; experiences are necessary for growth.

Three things can not hide for long: the Moon, the Sun and the Truth.

Don’t take a single thing for granted. Learn to treasure even the simplest moments with people. Things end without warning, that’s a promise.

Opinion is really the lowest form of human knowledge. It requires no accountability, no understanding. The highest form of knowledge is empathy, for it requires us to suspend our egos and live in another’s world. It requires profound purpose larger than the self kind of understanding.

Sometimes things fall apart so that better things can fall together.


The little things? The little moments? – They aren’t little.





  

The world is on your side, even when it doesn’t seem so. It’ll throw things at you in order to teach you how to catch. It’ll make you bleed but it will always give you the bandage.

Because if you’re lucky enough to have people in your life that make you happy, that inspire you, that move you, you need to devour each moment you have together because you never know how many of those moments you have left. These people are sacred.


Why does it hurt so much?’

‘Because it was real.’


"How to kill someone;
Hold their hand and then never touch their skin again,
See them nearly everyday and pretend they don’t exist,
Act like everything you ever said to them was a lie.





"I think you need to just close the fucking chapter on him even if it was long enough to be a fucking novel itself. You’ve cried over this boy so many times before, when are you going to put yourself first? When are you going to realize this is not what you deserve? When you were little would you have ever wished this for yourself? Why are you putting yourself through this? You are so goddamn important and he is a fucking idiot who didn’t deserve to know you the way he did. Let him go, let him go, let him go. There is nothing more you can do."

someday you'll be just a name.

Uncover me. Why should I wear modesty when the world knows of my barefaced love?

I desire
And I crave.

Would it be too childish of me to say: I want? But I do want: theatre, light, color, paintings, wine and wonder.

You always sees what nobody else sees; it is impossible to satisfy you.

Is evil something you are? Or something you do?

Life is not just a meaningless and continuous struggle to survive. We are divine beings, here to experience incredible beauty, unconditional love, pleasure for all our senses, kindness and compassion. We are here to learn, to grow wise, and to love.

oh, what an utterly tragic, yet beautiful thing it is—
to be so very, truly, undeniably human.

Take chances, take a lot of them. Because honestly, no matter where you end up and with whom, it always ends up just the way it should be. Your mistakes make you who you are. You learn and grow with each choice you make. Everything is worth it. Say how you feel, always. Be you, and be okay with it.

Words are never ‘only words’; they matter because they define the contours of what we can do.

modern art is what happens when painters stop looking at girls and persuade themselves that they have a better idea.

if u feel like u dont know what ur doing w ur life just remember that venus spins backwards and we dont even fuckin know why. just do whatever you wanna honestly

Just kinda wanna be braless and eat fruit in peace tbh

"Some people come into your life just to teach you how to let go."

It wasn’t meant to be. You’re not missing out. Your life has different plans for you.

I want someone who is clingy. I want someone who compliments me too much, who checks up on me, who can’t keep their hands off me, who never lets me forget how much they love me.

There will be a next time. Another love, another chance, another opportunity. Keep looking forward.

 You were born to be real, not to be perfect. You are here to be you, not to live someone else’s life. 

 Absolutely nothing that destroys you is worth holding on to. Let it go. 

You can only do so much to help those around you. You can’t fix their problems for them. Sometimes you have to let them heal and grow on their own.

You will find peace with whatever is tormenting you right now. Soon it will become a part of your past and only that.

We do not always control who we give our hearts to. Sometimes you will give it to the wrong person, but you will always get it back. You will get it back stronger and fuller than before, I promise.

 You can say stupid things but that doesn’t mean you’re stupid. You can be lazy but that doesn’t mean you aren’t capable of accomplishing amazing things. You can do and be so many things but it doesn’t always reflect who you truly are.

please remember that there is a difference between the person you were and the person you are.

when your world is falling apart around you, know that you can always create a new one.

your body is perfect within its own imperfections. it is beautiful because it is yours.

take a bath and close your eyes. silence your thoughts only listening to the running water. wait until your fingers prune then wrap a towel tightly around you. you are clean now, cleansed from all the negativity and stress and struggles.

me: it’s ok i’m not mad 
me 5 mins later: actually? you can go to hell

" What I hate is ignorance, smallness of imagination, the eye that sees no farther than its own lashes. All things are possible… Who you are is limited only by who you think you are."

don’t let anyone tell you that it’s a bad thing to feel things deeply. a full heart is a strong heart and being soft doesn’t make you weak. being soft and loving makes you radiant. you deserve all of the love in the world and so many good things.

Me 50% of the time: i love the independent life so much. i don't even want a relationship. i love being me, tied down by nothing

Me the other 50% of the time: all right who's ready to commit to a serious lifelong relationship with me raise your hand

Dont go, because I know you won't come back.

The hardest part is letting go of something you have never thought you would have to let go of.

But 5 months later you’ll sit drunk on the kitchen floor, texting him “Hey, I hope you’re doing well. Your shirt is still here. I miss you.” And he won’t reply.

Holding on to things will only break your heart.

Some people come into our lives to see how we handle losing them.

" Isn’t it funny how fate brought us together but it’s also fate that tore us apart?"

Sadly, too many of us stay together far longer than we should, 
‘cause it’s easier to say
I love you 
than it is to say
I don’t.”



" All we do is think about the feelings that we hide."

" Don’t dwell on what went wrong. Instead, focus on what to do next. Spend your energies on moving forward toward finding the answer."

" Start taking risks. Go up to people and introduce yourself instead of waiting for something to happen. Compliment people just to see them smile. Spread kindness around like confetti. Start living life."

"Love means something different when all you want from someone is for them to stay."

"At the end of the day, you’re the one that pushed me away. Not the other way around. So don’t act like this is my fault. You had a choice to make and you made the wrong one. That’s something you’ve gotta learn to live with. I’m done saving you."

"All I want is your clothes on my floor, coffee made for two and to make you so happy it hurts."

"Never wait around for a boy, he’ll come to you. Sometimes you need to be busy too, just to let him know that the sun doesn’t rise and shine over him."

there she goes again being over dramatic and by she i mean me

"A good life is not a place at which you arrive, it is a lens through which you see and create your world."

Deep in your wounds are seeds, waiting to grow into beautiful flowers

"Life will break you. Nobody can protect you from that, and living alone won't either, for solitude will also break you with its yearning. You have to love. You have to feel. It is the reason you are here on earth. You are here to risk your heart. You are here to be swallowed up. And when it happens that you are broken, or betrayed, or left, or hurt, or death brushes near, let yourself sit by an apple tree and listen to the apples falling all around you in heaps, wasting their sweetness. Tell yourself you tasted as many as you could.” - Louise Erdrich

Social media is a weird one, and I subscribe to the idea that you should not paint your life as "fake happy" when it isn't. Life happens to us all, the losses are just as much a part of us as the joys, and I don't know where this next part of my life leads. 

Enjoy your life today, hold your loved ones close. Should your path be crooked and winding, may you lead it to the most incredible view.

"Once you have tasted flight, you will forever walk the earth with your eyes turned skyward, for there you have been, there you belong, and there you will always long to return."

If you like my art, thank you. This is not my art.
This is me, sat in a frosted field one morning last week, with a person I adore, in a moment I will not ever get back.
These are the moments that my art is made from, the memories with people that simultaneously break my heart and fill me with happiness.

If you like my art, then thank you.
I understand not everyone wants to see the plain ol' pics of me in a field, not levitating or doing anything particularly awe inspiring.
But for me - this is my life, this what my art is built from, the true life behind the expression. See it for whatever you want :-) In the meantime, don't mind if I post said moments from my life highlight reel - they might be boring, but they're all I've got. ☺️📷

There is another world, but it is inside this one.

"Make a list of things that set your soul on fire
Make a list of things you do everyday
Compare the lists
Adjust accordingly"

Nowhere to go but everywhere

My alone feels so good, I'll only have you if you're sweeter than my solitude" - Warsan Shire

"So dawn goes down today... Nothing gold can stay." Some Robert Frost for a brand new year 🎉 My only resolution is to enjoy the gold until it's grey, to notice when I am happy and when I am, to think to myself "if this isn't nice, I don't know what is."

"Reality doesn't impress me. I only believe in intoxication, in ecstasy, and when ordinary life shackles me, I escape, one way or another. No more walls.

I am not street meat, I am homemade jam. I am not police sirens, I am the crackle in a fireplace. I am not a hotel room, I am home. I am not the whiskey you want, I am the water you need. So please don't come here, and try to make a vacation out of me - Rupi Kaur

"I thought about how the past can become so small. An entire day, twenty four heavy hours, becomes the size of a tiny brown leaf falling from a tree. Before you know it, a whole year is just a pile of dead leaves on the ground, swept away by the wind. I knew that this day, this year, would soon feel far away, too..." -

"It's a serious thing, you know
Just to be alive
On this fresh morning
In this broken world" - Mary Oliver

I wont let go

because being alone hurts more than chasing someone who's left

but if you've left

aren't I already alone?

It's official, I live next door to paradise 🌲

"And still after all this time
The sun never says to the earth "You owe me"
Look what happens with a love like that
It lights up the whole sky"

I left my old body in the woods,
folded over a tree.
I had someone else to meet that day,
that someone else was me

Sometimes you need to get lost to find yourself

"Don't be eye candy, be soul food."

If you grow up to be the type of woman men want to touch, you can let them touch you. Sometimes it is not you they are reaching for. Only some men will want to learn what it feels like to curl themselves into a question mark around you, admit they do not have the answers they thought they would by now. Some men will want to hold you like you are The Answer. You are not The Answer. Do not mistake yourself for a guardian, or a muse, or a promise, or a victim, or a snack. You are a woman. Skin and bones. Veins and nerves. You are not made of metaphors. Not apologies. Not excuses." The Type - Sarah Kay

Everyone needs a place. It shouldn't be inside of someone else. -Richard Siken

“I wanted to go on sitting there, not talking, not listening, keeping the moment precious for all time, because we were peaceful, we were content and drowsy even as the bee who droned above our heads. In a little while it would be different, there would come tomorrow, and the next day and another year. And we would be changed perhaps, never sitting quite like this again. Some of us would go away, or suffer, or die, the future stretched away in front of us, unknown, unseen, not perhaps what we wanted, not what we planned. This moment was safe though, this could not be touched.” - Daphne du Maurier, ‘Rebecca’

"It's the problem with Fairytales. From far away, they seem so perfect. But up close, they're just as complicated as real life."

"You not wanting me was the beginning of me wanting myself. Thank you."

Your body is 65% water and I’m thirsty

"Everyone says love hurts, but that is not true. Loneliness hurts, rejection hurts. Losing someone hurts. Envy hurts. Everyone gets these things confused with love, but in reality love is the only thing in this world that covers up all the pain and makes someone feel wonderful again. Love is the only thing in this world that does not hurt."

"Why should I be sad? I have lost someone who didn’t love me. But they lost someone who loved them."

be your own sun and be your own moon

"I will not be your “sometimes”."

"Go, because you want to. Because wanting to leave is enough."

"The worst thing in the world can happen, but the next day the sun will come up. And you will eat your toast. And you will drink your tea.

"I love the ups and downs of life. That’s how life goes. We create, we believe, we fall, we laugh and we live. And in the end it is all good"

"So here’s my question: when you lose the most important person to you in the entire world, where is all the love – love you never even knew you were capable of – supposed to go?"

"Do you ever realize how badly you’re going to miss a moment while you’re living it? Like wow, these are the good days. I am here and I am happy and I feel alive."

'This is a time for soft blankets, crackling fires, and spicy drinks that warm the soul.'

'Even if the only connection we have these days is being under the same sky, it’s better than nothing at all.'

'You see more flaws in yourself than anyone else ever will. Everyone is too busy focusing on their own flaws to notice any of yours.'

'Eat better. Run more. Squat more. Sleep earlier. Wake up earlier. Make a good breakfast. Drink water. Eat fruits. Read books. Adventure. Talk less. Listen more. Feel deeper. Love better. Open your eyes. Experience life. Be happy.'

'People come in and out of your life. For a time they are your world; they are everything. And then one day they’re not.'

'Sometimes you never realize the value of a moment until it becomes a memory.'

'I think people spend too much time staring into screens and not enough time drinking wine, tongue kissing, and dancing under the moon.'

'I already left behind people who I never imagined living without. But I’m still here, living.'

It’s one of those dumb days where nothing’s really wrong but nothing’s really right either and the sky can’t even choose to be white or gray.'

'So many things become beautiful when you really look.'

'Stop waiting for friday, for summer, for a boy to fall in love with you. Happiness is achieved when you stop waiting for it and make something of the moment you’re in right now.'

'Don’t wait to realize you shouldn’t have waited.'

I hope that someday you all become filled with so much happiness that it heals every part of you.

'If you see beauty in something, don’t wait for others to agree.'

Sometimes I forget how young I am, 
I have time. 

There’s enough time.

Eventually all the pieces fall into place.
until then, laugh at the confusion, 
live for the moment and know
that everything happens 
for a reason

“Real, true love is hard. You’d think it wouldn’t be because it’s so pure and beautiful, but anything that intense and life-changing takes work. You must foster it and keep it nourished.”

no offense but I’ve decided I’m gonna stop being sad and start being unbelievably powerful, creative, and full of love & light

There’s always something good coming. Remember that.

Cute boy in class: can I have a piece of paper? Me: sure *hands him a marriage certificate*