“i don’t care,” i say, caringly, as i care deeply // If there is one thing I could plant in your heart, it’s that you matter, you’ll always matter. // It’s scary how much I care and how much you don’t.

Two people who were once very close can without blame or grand betrayal become strangers. Perhaps this is the saddest thing in the world.

And for a moment you were mine
All mine
But it was fleeting.

You know you are doing well when you lose the interest of looking back.

I know sometimes we hurt each other
But I’m still in love with you
I still love you.

It’s a most distressing affliction to have a sentimental heart and a skeptical mind.

It’s so frustrating when you’re so fucking into someone and they think you could care less

the older I get the more I realize the value of privacy, of cultivating your circle and only letting certain people in. You can be open, honest, and real while still understanding not everyone deserves a seat at the table of your life.

I didn’t know you, and then all at once you were the air in my lungs.

I love your name. It’s the kinda name that looks good written on paper, over and over. The kinda name you want with yours in a sentence. The kinda name that sounds hot when you’re moaning in bed and it slips out effortlessl

I wonder how many strangers have stories about me.

there is honestly no reason to lie to me. I’m too understanding. I get shit. I get life. I know that shit happens. just be straight up w me

Never trust a person that has let you down more than 2 times. Once was a warning, twice was a lesson and anything more than that is simply taking an advantage. - 

I should have loved myself with the love I gave to you. -

You go away for a long time and return a different person - you never come all the way back.

It’s not because I’m fake. It’s because I have a different comfort zone around certain people. I’ll act loud, stupid, be mean to you, act crazy, and do the most stupidest things with you because I’m comfortable around you. But, I can be quiet and shy if I don’t know you that well or we aren’t very close. Just because I act differentaround certain people, doesn’t mean I’m fake. I just have a different comfort zone with certain people.

Stop thinking about everything so much, you’re breaking your own heart.



If there is one thing I could plant in your heart, it’s that you matter, you’ll always matter.

i’m such an art fanatic and you are by far my favorite masterpiece 

Tell me
what makes your
blood boil
and what makes
your skin soft.
I want to
know how your
soul tastes
before you take
your clothes off



I don’t have time to hate anyone, I either love you or I don’t care at all. 

I am yours. If I died this moment, I am yours. Forget me. Forget me and love me again as you did the first time. Forget me and come back to me again

Words can sting like anything but silence breaks the heart.

I just moved on without you. Maybe someday someone will appear and show me he can be the one. The right person. I just hope that, on that day, I’m not the wrong one.

I love sleeping, you don’t miss anyone and you don’t feel any pain

Wow I’m definitely just going to stop caring from now on. This hurts entirely too much.



Nobody ever tells you that emptiness weighs the most. 

I dont know how to keep you.
I dont know how to let you go

I’ve mastered the art of pretending to be tired instead of admitting I’m sad

I don’t think people understand how traumatizing bad relationships are


losing touch // paper planets

Throw me in a field of wild flowers and forget about me. I would rather lay there and watch the sky transform from day to night, listening to everything around me in between.

There’s no blame for how our love did slowly fade
And now that it’s gone it’s like it wasn’t there at all
And here i rest where disappointment and regret collide
Lying awake at night

sorry i didn’t respond to your text i was disenchanted with the entire human experience,” a thrilling new memoir by me


Brand New // The Boy Who Blocked His Own Shot

When did you decide to forget about me

please do not be mean spirited over any dogs appearance… please be kind… they may not understand your insults but I do and im already crying

american horror story: talking to people u used to be friends with

person: calm down
me: no i'm gonna keep complaining and be bitter about this, thanks

You may have spilled the gasoline, but it was I who struck a match.

I don’t want to be famous, I just want to be successful to where I can be lowkey and travel the world

I dropped a tear in the ocean. The day you find it is the day I will stop missing you





I haven’t posted a selfie in a while but I still am very cute just to keep you updated

If it’s still in your mind, it is still in your heart.

there is two
types of tired,
I suppose
one is a dire need of sleep
the other is a dire need of peace

and every morning you’ve woken
with nothing and no one
come with all your loss
your regrets, sins
black outs
come with all the rot in your mouth
and that voice like needle hitting record
come with your kind eyes and weeping knuckles
come with all your shame
come with your swollen heart
i’ve never seen anything more beautiful than you.

The sun is perfect and you woke this morning. You have enough language in your mouth to be understood. You have a name, and someone wants to call it. Five fingers on your hand and someone wants to hold it. If we just start there, every beautiful thing that has and will ever exist is possible. If we start there, everything, for a moment, is right in the world

where did it begin? what went wrong? and who made you feel so worthless?
if they wanted you, wouldn’t they have chosen you?
all this time, you were begging for love silently, thinking they couldn’t hear you, but they smelt it on you, you must have known that they could taste the desperate on your skin?
and what about the others that would do anything for you, why did you make them love you until you could not stand it?
how are you both of these women, both flighty and needful?
where did you learn this, to want what does not want you?
where did you learn this, to leave those that want to stay?
— Warsan Shire

I am a morning person. I love the sunrise. I love new days. A new start. Then, I met him. I fell in love with the idea of him. I loved everything about him; even those things that set us apart.
He loves night. This universe craves his presence while others sleep peacefully beneath her. He doesn’t mind. They share a connection far beyond any ocean’s depth. I envy the effect she has on him.
He pulled me in like waves at the shores. He engulfed me in his aura. Together, we feel like one magical being. Could he be the stars in my sky? Or my drams of cosmic dimensions?
I fell in love with the things he loves. Like nights now. Because of him, I am a night being. Feeling all her forces. The good ones. And bad. She keeps me in tune. She kept us in tune. Her power is boundless. Unstoppable. What this universe favors, nothing can tear apart.
Somehow, we still did.
— Our Story, Jada Jacinda

I can’t remember the first time I looked at your face and loved you.
It feels like it’s always been like this,
Like I’ve always answered your phone call at one in the morning,
Like I’ve always kissed you before getting in my car,
Like I’ve always spent most of my day in your home, 
In your arms,
In your presence.
Your roots have made their way into my bones,
And yellow roses have started to bloom on the parts of me that were covered in weeds.
I can’t remember the last time I said your name
And didn’t love you. 

I’ve got you in my heart
And forever in my mind
But my insides are still coal from the last person I loved.
Your warmth is seeping in through the little cracks in my skin 
And it’s turning me into diamonds.
I don’t know who I’ll be by the time I’m me again
But I hope she’s someone that can be with you
i never know what’s going on and i believe it’s just very sexy of me to be like that
Sorry I held someone else’s hand.
It had been a while since I felt something other than cold,
But I held on too long and his warmth burned right through my bones.
I thought your ice could heal it
But your breeze was always just a little too far. 
my parents never gave me the sex talk and here i am knowing more than i should
aries: even though they don't express it frequently, they constantly crave attention from the people they care about and feel neglected/disliked if they don't receive that attention
taurus: they're incredibly secretive; even if it seems like they're talking a lot and opening up to you, you will never know the whole story bc they'll never let you know the whole story - only random parts of it
gemini: very aware of what makes other people happy and of how to cheer them up - actually surprisingly good at comforting people if they care about them enough
cancer: even if they seem quiet and reserved on the outside theyre actually completely crazy once you get to know them and it's almost scary tbh
leo: 100% ready to help you out through any crap you're going through and are likely to kill someone for you if you need it
virgo: they have a rly dorky sense of humour and even though their jokes are usually the lame they'll always be there to pick you up when you're having a bad day
libra: not rly nice and nurturing to EVERYONE (like zodiac posts make them seem), actually VERY selective about their friends and gives them the realest advice without ever sugarcoating anything
scorpio: too perceptive, even if they don't point it out they can tell when something's wrong before you've even decided to tell them
sagittarius: even though they're outgoing and usually manage to get along with different kinds of people, they have only a very small number of true friends who they are ridiculously loyal to
capricorn: they are veeeeery picky, especially when it comes to friends and the people they trust - even if they seem very impressed with you they might be just acting polite while judging u on the inside lmao
aquarius: they aren't unemotional, they probably do care about you a lot but just don't know how to show it
pisces: they let themselves get dragged through the dirt all the time and even if you treat them like crap they pretend they're okay when they're not and do literally whatever they can to help you and make you happy

the other side of the signs
aries: can be very soft, emotional. sometimes doubt themselves. feel unwanted, unloved. they are without a doubt strong people but sometimes they just need someone to make them feel alright again. cry over people who hurt them in the past sometimes. never really forget what others did to them.
taurus: overprotective and jealous because they doubt themselves as a partner. sometimes they feel not good enough. can get angry over little things. when in rage they may say things they don't really mean and regret later. focused on their goals so much that they are about to give them up after a little failure.
gemini: can be mean and bitter when hurt. wouldn't admit they're hurt. ignore people because they don't know how to express themselves sometimes. overthink things and panic. it takes them a lot of time to regain their strength. they look for a home in other people. they often feel misunderstood.
cancer: they can be hard as a rock. they give second chances but they know exactly that giving a third chance is foolish. they won't hurt those who hurt them but they will make sure the people who did them wrong know what they did. is normally a dreamy romantic but they have an iron skin to hide in when it all gets too much.
leo: sometimes they feel powerless, as if something was sucking their energy out of them. challenges that seem impossible can bring them to their knees. sometimes their "roar" is a soft, whispering voice. their pride can make them roar incredibly loud though. if they feel like you make fun of them you'll get to see their teeth and this is not how you want to experience them.
virgo: sometimes they are mean on purpose, hurt on purpose. they may try to control others emotionally. they do this to be let alone or to make someone stay. sometimes they feel lonely and down. they also create little worlds where they hide then. they can have problems with saying or even knowing what they want and it confuses them and makes them feel uncomfortable.
libra: they doubt themselves a lot. they sometimes feel like the failed first try of a painting. sometimes they are not as kind as nomally, sometimes they explode. they never forget what they deserve and they will do anything to get what they want. they use their elbows to get people out of their way if it's needed.
scorpio: they sometimes feel things they don't understand and it makes them feel depressed. sometimes they feel like no one on this planet is made to understand them. sometimes they regret things so much that they hate themselves for making those mistakes. it takes them a ot of strength to seem as strong as they are.
saggittarius: the longer they look for them, the more "flaws" they'll find in themselves. they are bright people who live in so many colours but sometimes all they see is black and white, maybe grey. sometimes deep thoughts keep them awake and although they usually have many friends they don't know who to talk to. then they feel like the whole word has given up on them. they are known as funny, charming people but sometimes they feel like they're carrying the weight of everyone's happiness, like they're responsible for it, and that can be too much for them from time to time.
capricorn: they can be furious. sometimes, when it all gets too much, they yell and kick things and start treating the people around them badly just for standing where they stand, just for being there. they like to know more than they should. they rarely speak about how they feel. they tend to hide their true feelings from everyone around them and when they finally talk about things that bother them no one knows how to comfort them. they don't say what they want but expect others to feel what they want and when no one understands them they get angry.
aquarius: there can be a lot of secrets behind the pretty face of an aquarius. the best kept can be their sadness. although they are bright personalities who love to laugh and make jokes, aquarius often have experienced things that still bother them even after a long time. they won't always speak about it, they may try to cover it, but some day they will tell everyone what bothers them. it's actually hard for them to let go of their past.
pisces: they can be the most revengeful people. sometimes they know nothing, neither friends nor family. if they want to make someone pay for something they will do so, they will get their revenge. although they love a lot and love intensely, they also know hate. they try to avoid this feeling but they know it too well. actually pisces are haunted by a lot of things, mostly their own mistakes. they sometimes can't find peace. they fight for justice but sometimes they go too far. too far with many things. they tend to be self-destructive.

The three types of signs
Aries 1: The stereotypical one. Loud and quick to anger, always getting into some shit.
Aries 2: The common one. Extremely emotional and is always going through extreme highs and lows.
Aries 3: The rare one. Super fun to be around and incredibly fun-loving and memorable.
Taurus 1: The stereotypical one. Rigid and materialistic. Super responsible and loves food.
Taurus 2: The common one. Is secure and easygoing. Can get easily offended, and obsesses over the rules.
Taurus 3: The rare one. Very very kind hearted and funny. Enjoys the company of others and makes people feel safe.
Gemini 1: The stereotypical one. Two-faced and talks too much sometimes. Can be a bit flighty.
Gemini 2: The common one. Communicates well and tells a lot of jokes. Sometimes lies a lot.
Gemini 3: The rare one. Is extremely funny and is fun to talk to. They're very very smart.
Cancer 1: The stereotypical one. Is nurturing and family-oriented and loves animals.
Cancer 2: The common one. Kind of annoying, but sweet. Means well, but sometimes comes on too strong.
Cancer 3: The rare one. Manipulative and the biggest liars. Really selfish.
Leo 1: The stereotypical one. Outgoing and popular. Is really loud and a leader, yet selfish.
Leo 2: The common one. Fun-loving, but sometimes aloof. Loves to chat, but can be dramatic at times.
Leo 3: The rare one. Is super shy, but will not stop talking once you get to know them. Genius. Has a big personality.
Virgo 1: The stereotypical one. Neat freak. Cares A LOT about school work.
Virgo 2: The common one. Has a dark sense of humor. Wears their heart on their sleeve. Gets easily offended.
Virgo 3: The rare one. Is very lazy and makes up stories for the fuck of it. Tells really corny jokes.
Libra 1: The stereotypical one. A popular airhead. Dresses beautifully and has a wicked sense of fashion.
Libra 2: The common one. Takes good care of themselves. Like to make others feel good about themselves.
Libra 3: The rare one. Gets angry over small things and is super opinionated. Starts a lot of drama.
Scorpio 1: The stereotypical one. Is usually goth, and starts a lot of problems with people.
Scorpio 2: The common one. Has an asshole sense of humor. Loves to have fun and raise hell and impress people.
Scorpio 3: The rare one. Is very dark and mysterious. Keeps to themselves, and is often very intimidating.
Sagittarius 1: The stereotypical one. Is cute and loves everyone. A very pure person, who does no harm.
Sagittarius 2: The common one. Has a lot of friends, but tends to be nosy and butts into other situations. TALKATIVE.
Sagittarius 3: The rare one. Does a lot of drugs and goes on all kinds of adventures. Always a mystery.
Capricorn 1: The stereotypical one. Rigid and conservative. Puts a lot of effort into their work.
Capricorn 2: The common one. Very sarcastic and funny. Uses their intelligence to their advantage, but shy.
Capricorn 3: The rare one. Has dark views on life, but has an intriguing personality, nonetheless.
Aquarius 1: The stereotypical one. Probably from another planet, doesn't make sense ever.
Aquarius 2: The common one. Pretty insensitive to emotions, and has trouble understanding people, but is unique as hell.
Aquarius 3: The rare one. Super hilarious and amazing people. Are incredibly artistic.
Pisces 1: The stereotypical one. A crying fish who is innocent and emotional and pure.
Pisces 2: The common one. Is kinda lazy, but has an adorable sense of humor and is laid back and easy going as hell.
Pisces 3: The rare one. Is probably a drug addict who never takes a shower, but is an artistic genius.

I don’t wanna get involved in the drama I just wanna know 103% of the information on what happened

Aries: Phones, Social interactions, Attention
Taurus: Food, Sex, Sleeping
Gemini: Porn, Hoarding, Social media
Cancer: Attention, Music, Gossip
Leo: Money, Compliments, Travelling
Virgo: Computers, Music, Space
Libra: Video games, Sleeping, Acting
Scorpio: Cars, Sex, Money 
Sagittarius: Travelling, Food, Phones
Capricorn: TV, Money, Art
Aquarius: Potato chips, Identity theft, Praise
Pisces: Social interactions, Music, Attention

Money absolutely does buy happiness. You are probably just spending it wrong give it to me I’ll show you how it’s done



reblog if you don’t lift but you still have strong muscles from carrying the weight of your sins

will you still love me when im no longer young with nice lighting and good filters

"He was jealous of her future, 
and she of his past."

“do you like money?”


Aries- no chill
Taurus- no self awareness 
Gemini- mood swings constantly
Cancer- wants to be friends doesn’t actually want to do things
Leo- super high maintenance 
Virgo- worries about everything
Libra- super judgmental but won’t admit it
Scorpio- pretends to be something they’re not
Sagittarius- won’t talk about their problems. their dog got paid by their cousin to run over their grandmother with a bobcat and they’re all going to prison for fraud but you won’t hear about until the paper next morning trust me
Capricorn- hates themselves, but hates everyone else more
Aquarius- low key thinks that they’re a God
Pisces- so open with everyone, doesn’t understand when people betray them
once again i relate to all of these and i’m the annoying king

I think when it's all over, it just comes back in flashes, you know? It's like a kaleidoscope of memories. It just all comes back. But he never does. I think part of me knew the second I saw him that this would happen. Its not really anything he said or anything he did, it was the feeling that came along with it. And the crazy thing is I don't know if Im ever gonna feel that way again.But I don't know if I should. I knew his world moved too fast and burned too bright. But I just thought, how can the devil be pulling you toward someone who looks so much like an angel when he smiles at you? Maybe he knew that when he saw me. I guess I just lost my balance. I think that the worst part of it all wasn't losing him. It was losing me.

You know you are doing well when you lose the interest of looking back.

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