Wrong turns are as important as right turns. More important, sometimes. // Remember me. Try your best.

When I don’t touch you it’s a mistake in any life,
in each place and forever

One day I decided that I was beautiful, and so I carried out my life as if I was a beautiful girl. I wear colors that I really like, I wear makeup that makes me feel pretty, and it really helps. It doesn’t have anything to do with how the world perceives you. What matters is what you see. Your body is your temple, it’s your home, and you must decorate it.

The rain sounded like it was washing the whole world away.

I’d give everything I am for who you were.

Insomnia is an all-night travel agency with posters advertising faraway places.

Stars got tangled in her hair whenever she played in the sky.

Discover why you’re important, then refuse to settle for anyone who doesn’t completely agree.

if you think this has a happy ending, you haven’t been paying attention

Forget safety.
Live where you fear to live.
Destroy your reputation.

Be notorious.

People who truly love us can be divided into two categories: those who understand us, and those who forgive us our worst sins. Rarely do you find someone capable of both.

I’ll go to sleep at a decent time when I find something worth waking up for.

I can breathe when I’m with her, and this means more to me than happiness.

 

Isn’t it funny how we live inside the lies we believe?

Sometimes you are aware when your great moments are happening, and sometimes they rise from the past. Perhaps it’s the same with people.

Not only are there no happy endings,” she told him, “there aren’t even any endings.

Neil Gaiman, American Gods

Lonely people have enthusiasms which cannot always be explained. When something strikes them as funny, the intensity and length of their laughter mirrors the depth of their loneliness, and they are capable of laughing like hyenas. When something touches their emotions, it runs through them like Paul Revere, awakening feelings that gather into great armies.

You are going to break your promise. I understand. And I hold my hands over the ears of my heart, so that I will not hate you.

The winds that awakened the stars
Are blowing through my blood.

He looks at one of the pictures for a long time. Then he looks at me. “I’ll keep you up here.” He taps his temple. “Where you can’t get lost.”

I tell you not to love me but I still kiss you when I want to.

So, little Amélie, your bones aren’t made of glass. You can take life’s knocks. If you let this chance go by, eventually, your heart will become as dry and brittle as my skeleton.

Amélie. 2001

Understand that, the prisons you’ve built are of your own design.

Understand that, you should be the person you wanted to be when you woke up this morning.

Understand that, the world desperately wants to love you, if you’ll let it.

Understand that, you deserve that love, even if you don’t feel like it.

Understand that, love can hit a planet like a comet.

Understand that, the rain can unrain, if you want it to.Iain Thomas

A few times in my life I’ve had moments of absolute clarity, when for a few brief seconds the silence drowns out the noise and I can feel rather than think, and things seem so sharp. And the world seems so fresh as though it had all just come into existence. I can never make these moments last. I cling to them, but like everything, they fade. I have lived my life on these moments. They pull me back to the present, and I realize that everything is exactly the way it was meant to be. (A Single Man, 2009)

You smell like a flower that is neither alive nor dead, because no one has changed its water for weeks. You have a sleepy smell, like when you wake up in the morning and you’ve been dreaming too long.

Only those things are beautiful which are inspired by madness and written by reason.

You’re just another story I can’t tell anymore.

People do not love those whose eyes show that they are somewhere else.

The truth isn’t always beauty, but the hunger for it is.

We all find ourselves on bridges at one point or another. A place between here and there. Sometimes literal, sometimes figurative… but that part isn’t so important. It’s more important to recognize where you were, and where you are going.

this whole dating thing is just crap who needs it I’ll just watch more tv and eat more pizza and sleep even more and stop caring about this whole dating nonsense

I’m seeing you see everyone but me.

I will never touch that skin again
I will never feel that way again
I will never look into the face of my father or my friends
And be able to say, I’m okay, I’m okay, I don’t feel pain anyway
Not anymore, anyway

And I’m not dead yet, but I could be soon
And all I want to do is put my arms around you

Love is temperamental. Tiring. It makes demands. Love uses you, changes its mind. But hatred, now, that’s something you can use. Sculpt. Wield. It’s hard, or soft, however you need it. Love humiliates you, but hatred cradles you.

there is a loneliness in this world so great
that you can see it in the slow movement of
the hands of a clock.
people so tired
mutilated
either by love or no love.
people just are not good to each other
one on one.
the rich are not good to the rich
the poor are not good to the poor.
we are afraid.
our educational system tells us
that we can all be
big-ass winners.
it hasn’t told us
about the gutters
or the suicides.
or the terror of one person
aching in one place
alone
untouched
unspoken to
watering a plant.

Charles Bukowski, Love is a Dog from Hell

Sometimes a shock to the system is a good thing, you know? Like a reminder that you’re alive.

the worst is having a dream where someone loves you and you can practically feel them touching you and it feels so real and then you wake up and it’s like the life is being sucked out of you and the happiness just drains out of your body and you feel empty again

The most important things are the hardest to say. They are the things you get ashamed of, because words diminish them―words shrink things that seemed limitless when they were in your head to no more than living size when they’re brought out. But it’s more than that, isn’t it? The most important things lie too close to wherever your secret heart is buried, like landmarks to a treasure your enemies would love to steal away. And you may make revelations that cost you dearly only to have people look at you in a funny way, not understanding what you’ve said at all, or why you thought it was so important that you almost cried while you were saying it. That’s the worst, I think. When the secret stays locked within not for want of a teller but for want of an understanding ear.

Stephen King

8:21 PM625 NOTES

Pain has a way of clipping our wings and keeping us from being able to fly.

 

The summer sun was not meant for boys like me. Boys like me belonged to the rain.

I’m running because I can, because I must. Because I want to see how far I can go before I have to stop.

She felt a warmth inside her. It was very small, but it was strong. It was steady, like a tiny light in the dark, and it burned very low but no winds could make it flicker because it would not give up.

I no longer think she’s just being nice. She’s being kind. Which is much more a sign of character than mere niceness. Kindness connects to who you are, while niceness connects to how you want to be seen.

David Levithan, Every Day 

It’s about misunderstandings between people and places, being disconnected and looking for moments of connection. There are so many moments in life when people don’t say what they mean, when they are just missing each other, waiting to run into each other in a hallway.

Sofia Coppola

We are the night you couldn’t sleep. The night you stared at the ceiling, thinking, ‘Is this it?’ ‘Is this the best life has to offer?’ No. There is a freedom in you that knows no fear.

I’m only quiet because I’m worried that if you push me too far, one day I will open my mouth and I will scream so loudly, it will shatter and break the whole world.

You’re human, you made a human mistake. You did a terrible thing, it doesn’t mean you’re a terrible person.

Other women are not my competition. I stand with them, not against them.

Or maybe it’s just that beautiful things are so easily broken by the world.

'Just kidding' was exactly what people wrote when they meant every word.

David Nicholls

I have looked for your face in the patterns of the ice. In the dark, I have pored over the loss of you like pale gold.

I wanted to let the world know that no one had a perfect life, that even the people who seemed to have it all had their secrets.

Name ten things you wanna do before you die and then go do them. Name ten places you really wanna be before you die and then go to them. Name ten books you wanna read before you die and then go read them. Name ten songs you wanna hear again before you die, get all of your friends together and scream them, because right now all you have is time but someday that time will run out. That’s the only thing you can be absolutely certain about. Think of all the things that are wrong with your life and then fix them, think of all the things that you love about your life be thankful you are blessed with them, think of all the things that hold you back and realize that you don’t need them, think of all the mistakes you have made in your life, make sure that you never repeat them because right now all you have is time but someday that time will run out. That’s the only thing you can be absolutely certain about. Name ten thousand reasons why you never wanna die, go and tell someone who might’ve forgotten try to list the endless reasons why it’s good to be alive and then just smile for awhile about them, soon the sun will rise and another day will come, soon enough the sun will set, another day will be gone and right now all you have is time, but someday that time will run out.

I wonder if you live there still
I kinda think you always will
If I tried you’d probably be
Hard to find

Mirrors should think longer before they reflect.

I release you. I evict you from my heart. Because if I don’t do it now, I never will.

 

There are no uninteresting things, only uninterested people.

Don’t fall in love with a curious one. They will want to know who you are, where you come from, what your family was like. They will look through your photographs and read all of your poems. They will come over for dinner and speak to your mother about how their curiosity has taught them things of use to her. They will ask you to rant when you’re angry and cry when you’re hurt. They will ask what that raised eyebrow meant. They will want to know your favorite food, your favorite color, your favorite person. They will ask why. They will buy that camera you liked, pay attention to that band you love in case there’s a show near by, they will get you the sweater you smiled at once. They’ll learn to cook your favorite meals. The curious people don’t settle for your shell, they want the insides. They want what makes you heavy, what makes you uneasy, what makes you scream for joy, and anger, and heartbreak. Their skin will turn into pages that you learn to pour out your entire being in. Don’t fall in love with the curious one. They won’t let a sigh go unexplained. They will want to know what they did. Exactly what they did to make you love them. Year, month, week, day. “What time was it? What did I say? What did I do? How did you feel?” Don’t fall in love with a curious one because I’ve been there. They will unbutton your shirt and read every scar every mark every curve. They will dissect your every limb, every organ, every thought, every being then walk back home and eat their dinner and never return your calls. You will never be their lifelong expedition. The heart is a mystery only for so long. There is no ache like loving a curious one who chases every falling star and never catching one. Who comes and sees and conquers and leaves. I’ve fallen in love with a curious one. Maybe one day he will take the train back home and be curious enough to read one last message from me carved on a seat. “There’s a curiosity in you that will move mountains some day as effortlessly as you’ve moved me for years.”

Don’t Fall In Love With The Curious One

 

 

 

Life is long. Just because you don’t get your chance right when you want or expect it doesn’t mean it won’t come. Fate doesn’t punch a time clock or consult a schedule.

Even a mistake is better than nothing.

There’s no point in being scared of just trying. The worst that can happen is just failure, right?

here is no courage in flirting with fear
to prove you’re alive

It’s difficult to ever go back to the same places or people. You turn away, even for a moment, and when you turn back around, everything’s changed.

She left because I kissed her..

I got dressed this morning. For myself. 
Put on eye liner. for myself.

Put on my favorite red lipstick. for myself.

Showed a bit of skin. for myself

I wanted to be beautiful. For myself.

You know what’s really, powerfully sexy? A sense of humor. A taste for adventure. A healthy glow. Hips to grab on to. Openness. Confidence. Humility. Appetite. Intuition. … Smart-ass comebacks. Presence. A quick wit. Dirty jokes told by an innocent-looking lady. … A storyteller. A genius. A doctor. A new mother. A woman who realizes how beautiful she is.

Courtney E. Martin

 

He hadn’t realized how much it could mean, having someone to talk to like that; he hadn’t realized that it could be a kind of lifeline, and that without it, there would be nobody to save you if you started to drown.

When you lose someone who’s as close as your own skin, the only place you can find him again is hidden inside your memories.

Where were you when I was still kind

Just a water treader, waiting on the line…

She was desperate and she was choosey
at the same time and, in a way, beautiful, but she didn’t have quite enough going for her to become what

she imagined herself to be.

I support gay rights and gay lefts, I support gay ups and downs, basically any direction a gay can go

 

You can kill a man with those words.
No gun.
No bullets.

Just words and a girl.

You’re never going to find a guy who’s exactly like you—first of all, because that guy never leaves his dorm room.…

 

                                                

Wherever you are―be all there.

Something came out from my heart into my throat and then into my eyes.

having three jobs makes me look ambitious for the first time in my life

It’s worth knowing who’s going to whisper your name when everyone else is screaming.

It’s a lie, you know, to pretend that nothing is important to you. It’s hiding.

Am I in love? ―yes, since I am waiting. The other one never waits. Sometimes I want to play the part of the one who doesn’t wait; I try to busy myself elsewhere, to arrive late; but I always lose at this game. Whatever I do, I find myself there, with nothing to do, punctual, even ahead of time. The lover’s fatal identity is precisely this: I am the one who waits.

My shadow serves as the friend I crave.

That’s what careless words do. They make people love you a little less.

I do not think I’m easy to define. I have a wandering mind. And I’m not anything that you think I am.

You’re going to lose weight, and buy a closet full of new clothes, and whiten your teeth, and cut your hair, and move to a great apartment in a different city, and make new cooler friends. And you’re still going to be unhappy.

Don’t attach yourself to anyone who shows you the least bit of attention because you’re lonely. Lonliness is the human condition. No one is ever going to fill that space. The best thing you can do it know yourself… know what you want.

I like beautiful melodies telling me terrible things.

"I’m sorry for every word I wrote to change you, I’m sorry for so many things. I couldn’t see you when you were here and, now that you’re gone, I see you everywhere.”

Gone. The saddest word in the language. In any language.

August: Osage County (2013)

When they’re gone out of his head, these words, they’ll be gone, everywhere, forever. As if they had never been.

You can keep as quiet as you like, but one of these days somebody is going to find you.

You were what you were and you are what you are. Fuck that regrets bullshit.

Maybe you don’t go to hell for the things you do. Maybe you go to hell for the things you don’t do. The things you don’t finish.

I’ll walk forever with stories inside me that the people I love the most can never hear.

Millions of words passed between us in our lives and if it came down to one sentence, I would tell you only this: 
I am afraid I will love you always.

Doesn’t it make you sad?

To see him again and again?

You must love in such a way that the person you love feels free.

 

Sometimes you can only feel something by its absence. By the empty spaces it leaves behind.

Kisses are like tears, the only real ones are the ones you can’t hold back.

Please do not understand me too quickly.

  

And it’s amazing how much noise people ignoring each other can make.

I am too intelligent, too demanding, and too resourceful for anyone to be able to take charge of me entirely. No one knows me or loves me completely. I have only myself.

Don’t let your habits become handcuffs.

my hobbies include being a sarcastic bitch and that’s it

Beautiful things don’t ask for attention.

Sometimes
there is a ‘help me’ 

chained to the ankle of an ‘I’m doing alright’.

I have infinite tenderness for you and always will

I was looking for the one but I guess you’ll do.

If you can’t be a good example, you’ll just have to be a horrible warning.

The head of a company survived 9/11 because
His son started kindergarten.

Another fellow was alive because it was
His turn to bring donuts.

One woman was late because her
Alarm clock didn’t go off in time.

One was late because of being stuck on the NJ Turnpike
Because of an auto accident.

One of them
Missed his bus.

One spilled food on her clothes and had to take
Time to change.

One’s
Car wouldn’t start.

One couldn’t
Get a taxi.

The one that struck me was the man
Who put on a new pair of shoes that morning,
Took the various means to get to work but before.
He got there, he developed a blister on his foot.
He stopped at a drugstore to buy a Band-Aid.
That is why he is alive today..

Now when I am
Stuck in traffic,
Miss an elevator,
Turn back to answer a ringing telephone…
All the little things that annoy me,
I think to myself,

This is exactly where
I’m meant to be

At this very moment

Just be fucking honest about how you feel about people while you’re alive.

John Mayer

And above all, watch with glittering eyes the whole world around you because the greatest secrets are always hidden in the most unlikely places. Those who don’t believe in magic will never find it.

I am
convinced
that different
people
awaken 
different beasts

in you.

People change, no use getting sentimental about it. Move on, find someone else.

You ask why
I love you.
For this:

You are
a minute
of quiet

in a loud
shouting

world.

To have her here in bed with me, breathing on me, her hair in my mouth—I count that something of a miracle.

we’re too similar
losing our minds with cabin fever
shut in confined spaces

lost in the dark

 

 

it doesnt matter if the glass is half full or half empty all that matter is if the glass contains vodka.

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• End - stop, finish, terminate, conclude, close, halt, cessation, discontinuance
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• Explain - elaborate, clarify, define, interpret, justify, account for
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• Famous - well-known, renowned, celebrated, famed, eminent, illustrious, distinguished, noted, notorious
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• Fear - fright, dread, terror, alarm, dismay, anxiety, scare, awe, horror, panic, apprehension
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• Kill - slay, execute, assassinate, murder, destroy, cancel, abolish
• Lazy - indolent, slothful, idle, inactive, sluggish
• Little - tiny, small, diminutive, shrimp, runt, miniature, puny, exiguous, dinky, cramped, limited, itsy-bitsy, microscopic, slight, petite, minute
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• Make - create, originate, invent, beget, form, construct, design, fabricate, manufacture, produce, build, develop, do, effect, execute, compose, perform, accomplish, earn, gain, obtain, acquire, get
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• Mischievous - prankish, playful, naughty, roguish, waggish, impish, sportive
• Move - plod, go, creep, crawl, inch, poke, drag, toddle, shuffle, trot, dawdle, walk, traipse, mosey, jog, plug, trudge, slump, lumber, trail, lag, run, sprint, trip, bound, hotfoot, high-tail, streak, stride, tear, breeze, whisk, rush, dash, dart, bolt, fling, scamper, scurry, skedaddle, scoot, scuttle, scramble, race, chase, hasten, hurry, hump, gallop, lope, accelerate, stir, budge, travel, wander, roam, journey, trek, ride, spin, slip, glide, slide, slither, coast, flow, sail, saunter, hobble, amble, stagger, paddle, slouch, prance, straggle, meander, perambulate, waddle, wobble, pace, swagger, promenade, lunge
• Moody - temperamental, changeable, short-tempered, glum, morose, sullen, mopish, irritable, testy, peevish, fretful, spiteful, sulky, touchy
• Neat - clean, orderly, tidy, trim, dapper, natty, smart, elegant, well-organized, super, desirable, spruce, shipshape, well-kept, shapely
• New - fresh, unique, original, unusual, novel, modern, current, recent
• Old - feeble, frail, ancient, weak, aged, used, worn, dilapidated, ragged, faded, broken-down, former, old-fashioned, outmoded, passe, veteran, mature, venerable, primitive, traditional, archaic, conventional, customary, stale, musty, obsolete, extinct
• Part - portion, share, piece, allotment, section, fraction, fragment
• Place - space, area, spot, plot, region, location, situation, position, residence, dwelling, set, site, station, status, state
• Plan - plot, scheme, design, draw, map, diagram, procedure, arrangement, intention, device, contrivance, method, way, blueprint
• Popular - well-liked, approved, accepted, favorite, celebrated, common, current
• Predicament - quandary, dilemma, pickle, problem, plight, spot, scrape, jam
• Put - place, set, attach, establish, assign, keep, save, set aside, effect, achieve, do, build
• Quiet - silent, still, soundless, mute, tranquil, peaceful, calm, restful
• Right - correct, accurate, factual, true, good, just, honest, upright, lawful, moral, proper, suitable, apt, legal, fair
• Run - race, speed, hurry, hasten, sprint, dash, rush, escape, elope, flee
• Say/Tell - inform, notify, advise, relate, recount, narrate, explain, reveal, disclose, divulge, declare, command, order, bid, enlighten, instruct, insist, teach, train, direct, issue, remark, converse, speak, affirm, suppose, utter, negate, express, verbalize, voice, articulate, pronounce, deliver, convey, impart, assert, state, allege, mutter, mumble, whisper, sigh, exclaim, yell, sing, yelp, snarl, hiss, grunt, snort, roar, bellow, thunder, boom, scream, shriek, screech, squawk, whine, philosophize, stammer, stutter, lisp, drawl, jabber, protest, announce, swear, vow, content, assure, deny, dispute
• Scared - afraid, frightened, alarmed, terrified, panicked, fearful, unnerved, insecure, timid, shy, skittish, jumpy, disquieted, worried, vexed, troubled, disturbed, horrified, terrorized, shocked, petrified, haunted, timorous, shrinking, tremulous, stupefied, paralyzed, stunned, apprehensive
• Show - display, exhibit, present, note, point to, indicate, explain, reveal, prove, demonstrate, expose
• Slow - unhurried, gradual, leisurely, late, behind, tedious, slack
• Stop - cease, halt, stay, pause, discontinue, conclude, end, finish, quit
• Story - tale, myth, legend, fable, yarn, account, narrative, chronicle, epic, sage, anecdote, record, memoir
• Strange - odd, peculiar, unusual, unfamiliar, uncommon, queer, weird, outlandish, curious, unique, exclusive, irregular
• Take - hold, catch, seize, grasp, win, capture, acquire, pick, choose, select, prefer, remove, steal, lift, rob, engage, bewitch, purchase, buy, retract, recall, assume, occupy, consume
• Tell - disclose, reveal, show, expose, uncover, relate, narrate, inform, advise, explain, divulge, declare, command, order, bid, recount, repeat
• Think - judge, deem, assume, believe, consider, contemplate, reflect, mediate
• Trouble - distress, anguish, anxiety, worry, wretchedness, pain, danger, peril, disaster, grief, misfortune, difficulty, concern, pains, inconvenience, exertion, effort
• True - accurate, right, proper, precise, exact, valid, genuine, real, actual, trusty, steady, loyal, dependable, sincere, staunch
• Ugly - hideous, frightful, frightening, shocking, horrible, unpleasant, monstrous, terrifying, gross, grisly, ghastly, horrid, unsightly, plain, homely, evil, repulsive, repugnant, gruesome
• Unhappy - miserable, uncomfortable, wretched, heart-broken, unfortunate, poor, downhearted, sorrowful, depressed, dejected, melancholy, glum, gloomy, dismal, discouraged, sad
• Use - employ, utilize, exhaust, spend, expend, consume, exercise
• Wrong - incorrect, inaccurate, mistaken, erroneous, improper, unsuitable

I will never look at you in the same way ever again. I’ll never be that girl again. The girl who comes running back every time you push her away, the girl who loves you anyway.

Jenny Han, It’s Not Summer Without You

i want my music so loud that i cant hear my life crashing and burning

I still love you in my own fucked-up way.

This is the thing about life I’ve never really understood until now: we try so hard to control it, but bad things happen anyway. The only real control is an anti-control, a letting go.

I don’t pretend to be wise, but I am observing, and I see a great deal more than you’d imagine. I’m interested in other people’s experiences and inconsistencies, and, though I can’t explain, I remember and use them for my own benefit.

A stranger can see in an instant something in you that you might spend years learning about yourself. How awful we all are when we look at ourselves under a light, finally seeing our reflections. How little we know about ourselves. How much forgiveness it must take to love a person, to choose not to see their flaws, or to see those flaws and love the person anyway. If you never forgive you’ll always be alone.

 

She looks sad. She looks angry. She looks different from everyone else I know—she cannot put on that happy face others wear when they know they are being watched. She doesn’t put on a face for me, which makes me trust her somehow.

I want to be with someone but there’s no one I want.

and in my dreams, you’re alive and you’re cryingas your mouth moves in mine, soft and sweetrings of flowers ‘round your eyes and
I’ll love you for the rest of your life

when you’re ready

You have those friends and you think, well if I met you now, I wouldn’t even talk to you.

You may be a delicate flower but, hey, so is Belladonna and it can still kill people.

8. Sleep on a pile of towels if you have to. Sleep in the grass. Sleep at a new friends’ place every night. As long as you’re sleeping next to something you love - whether it be a partner or the latest Palahniuk - scented fabric softener won’t mean shit.

16. Don’t fucking daydream about it. Do it. Write your own ending.

I realized why I was lost. It’s not because I didn’t have a map… It was because I didn’t have a destination.

We don’t have to be defined by the things we did or didn’t do in our past. Some people allow themselves to be controlled by regret. Maybe it’s a regret, maybe it’s not. It’s merely something that happened.

I wonder if you know yet that you’ll leave me. That you
are a child playing with matches and I have a paper body. 
You will meet a girl with a softer voice and stronger arms and she 
will not have violent secrets or an affection for red wine or eyes
that never stay dry. You will fall into her bed and I’ll go back
to spending Friday nights with boys who never learn my last name.

I have chased off every fool who has tried to sleep beside me
You think it’s romantic to fuck the girl who writes poems about you.
You think I’ll understand your sadness because I live inside my own.
But I will show up at your door at 2 am, wild-eyed and sleepless.
and try and find some semblance of peace in your breastbone

and you will not let me in. You will tell me to go home.

 

 

 saw you when it caught your eye

And it’s such a petty price to pay…

Speak your heart. If they don’t understand, the message was never meant for them anyway.

I’m not saying that I’m an amazing actor but i HAVE won as many Oscars as Leonardo DiCaprio

I’d much rather be someone’s shot of whiskey than everyone’s cup of tea.

It’s always the fear of looking stupid that stops you from being awesome.

Your skin sounds like my favorite vinyl.

Every year, unknowingly, we pass the anniversary of our future death.

If sex without love can exist, then people need to realize love without sex can exist.

You talked to me, but you didn’t. I could see you having these two-sided conversations. The things you wanted to say to me. And the words that actually came out.

I need a holiday. A very long holiday. And I don’t expect I shall return. In fact I mean not to.

Time in dreams is frozen. You can never get away from where you’ve been.

let’s play how many tabs can you open before your browser does not want to talk to you anymore

lets play “how rude can i be until u realize i dont like u”

Everyone else isn’t you. It turns out that’s a huge problem for me.

he Ways I Didn’t Leave You:

Even though I knew how it felt to love someone with a heart like the sharp edge of a knife, I pulled out the whetstone.

I asked you to bend, to be small enough to close my fist around. I wanted to be certain you could never get away.

I knew there was someone else, but I started looking through your pockets for proof I was wrong.

I threw a wine glass across the kitchen like a fastball, we both stood and stared at the shattered glass, proof that good people do terrible things.

I said “I love you” when I meant something much more specific, I should have said “Please don’t leave me, I’m afraid to sleep alone.”

I am all the days that you choose to ignore

Fear, Sadness. They’re not weaknesses. They are overpowering, defining emotions. They make you human.

I suppose a fire that burns that bright is not meant to last.

Break my heart? Is that what you just said? I have news for you; you didn’t break my heart. My heart’s fine. My heart’s in the best shape of its life. You know what you did to me? You took an AK-47 and blew my soul open.

Every path is the right path. Everything could’ve been anything else. And it would have just as much meaning.

Some changes happen deep down inside of you. And the truth is, only you know about them. Maybe that’s the way it’s supposed to be.

I pretend we have run out of milk. 
I pretend that you are at the grocery store.
and this absence 
is nothing but temporary.
But then I wake up and the fridge is empty and 
your car is gone
and I start a grocery list
and it ends up being a poem about you.
And I hate that your name still means something,
And I hate that you’re not picking up your phone,
and I hate that I can’t eat cereal
because you are taking so long
to get the damn milk.

No matter how much you feed the wolf, he keeps looking at the forest.

it’s frightening the way you look at me as something that needs saving

before you fall in love with me,
let me tell you that I would
rather watch the moon on a 
Saturday night than go out and
get drunk at expensive bars with
people that don’t give a damn about me.
let me tell you that I am yesterday’s
paper throw in the garbage, unread.
I am not a romantic midnight walk
down by the park, or everlasting
roses that never wilt. I am not a
gracious ocean, but rather a humid,
filthy swamp. so before you fall inlove with me, run. 


I can hardly remember, just the smell of your hands
as they danced on my body, running over my pores
with the force of steering wheel crushing my bones

I know I don’t need him, but I think I want him.

Thought of you as everything
I’ve had but couldn’t keep

Listen, kid.
Science tells us that
the entire world gravitates
toward chaos,
that every atom
holding our fragile lives together
is falling apart.
Those 2 A.M. nights
when the salt water
in your lungs burned
and you couldn’t see a way out-
falling apart.
The boy who stabbed you with smiles-
falling apart.
Your brave sister,
your hopeless father,
your beautiful mother-
falling,
falling,
falling apart.

So, what’s the point, kid?
If we’re all marching toward an impending doom,
what’s the fucking point?
Science doesn’t tell us what to do
before the chaos we’re all hurtling toward.
And kid, that’s because science is full of shit.
Science only tells us the outcome,
not the desperately important in-between bits-
the ugly and terrible and painful,
the magnificent and lovely and magical
bits that sew up a life.

So, kid, you’ve got to live,
and not just that stoic existence you’ve
been stomping through all this time.
You’ve got to be kind,
you’ve got to fall in love,
fall out of love,
no matter how much it hurts
because my god,
it’s worth it.
Don’t let the world turn you to stone;
you’ve got to feel.
And sometimes,
your heart will threaten
to march right out of your chest
because you’re so fucking full of it all-
of the people,
the places,
the endless days,
the eternal nights-
and kid, that’s fine.

Be brave.
Courage isn’t measured by the
number of people you’ve turned away
or by the counts of the nights you’ve
spent alone because you refuse to
give someone the chance to love you.
Being alone is not poetic;
you’ve got to let them in.
Let them peel back your skin
and waltz into your bloodstream
and love them,
love them,
love them.

And finally, kid,
your life has already begun.
Stop waiting.
Chaos is already underway.

And you laugh like you’ve never been lonely. You laugh like there’s hope in the story.

She heard the very beginning of a smile in his voice—a fetal smile—and it very nearly killed her.

 

Your lips are all I wanted at midnight.

Do I have to write it on your bedroom wall, you fool?

In 20 years I won’t remember today; that scares me.

 

I was looking for the key for years but the door was always open.

 Well, let’s say that since you were little, you always dreamed of getting a lion. And you wait, and you wait, and you wait, and you wait but the lion doesn’t come. And along comes a giraffe. You can be alone, or you can be with the giraffe. 
- I’d wait for the lion. 
- That’s why I worry about you.

I don’t care how hot you are, if your personality is shit your physical appearance automatically means nothing

It’s always been hard for me to tell the difference between denial and what used to be known as hope.

Through the storm we reach the shore
You give it all but I want more
And I’m waiting for you

Why do you leave everyone? Why did you let me go?"
“Maybe because I don’t really believe that it’s gonna work. And then I make sure that it doesn’t work.

We knew it wouldn’t work even before we met her.

Not eating in order to lose weight is like not watering your plants in order to kill weeds. In the end, you kill the good along with the bad.

All I’m doing is sitting here when what I really want is to be at a party kissing a stranger and drinking vodka.

Don’t give up before the miracle happens.

You don’t need to give reasons for the things you do—you just have to do what you want. And sometimes the thing that seems messed up to everyone else is what’s right for you. You have to do it and not be ashamed of it.

If I never meet you in this life, let me feel the lack.

Maybe there’s a universe where I’m the right person for you. Where I adore every nice thing you did for me without starting to resent you. A universe where you actually end up with someone who appreciates you. Where no one becomes a doormat. Where both of us can shed our baggage and curiosity and issues. A universe where we’re happy—without wondering if that happiness is some messed-up Jenga game ready to topple at the slightest quiver. A universe where we’re comfortable and sure. Where I don’t second guess everything and I’m not afraid of commitment and of the future and of love. Maybe there’s a universe without all the noise in my head and the pride that makes me so fiercely independent and the coldness in my heart that I can turn on and off like a security fence.

I am the kind of person who would miss a train or a plane to meet you for coffee. I’d take a taxi across town to see you for ten minutes. I’d wait outside all night if I thought you would open the door in the morning. If you call me and say ‘Will you…’ my answer is ‘Yes’, before your sentence is out. I spin worlds where we could be together. I dream you. For me, imagination and desire are very close.

You asked me if I believed in magic, and I said yes, and that’s how. You just step out, start pulling your life out of the air. You make friends, you find work you really like doing, you find places. You find diners and Laundromats. You find beaches. You find a junk car and drive it for a month, then lave it beside the road. You find someone to fall in love with you. You make it all up as you go. Or, you know, maybe it makes you up.

The simple lack of her is more to me than others’ presence.

Sometimes we say that we met people at the wrong time. But maybe we meet them when we are the wrong person, when we have not yet met and fallen in love with ourselves. We are only half of a thing—even if we can imagine that there is a better version of us out there—and we are hoping that someone else will fill in the missing parts so that we don’t have to. 

And even promising words are not enough promise for you.

Sometimes when you finally find out, you realize that you were much better off not knowing.

 

THE LOVE OF YOUR LIFE?

The hardest thing to do when you go back underwater, is talk about what the sky was like.

One day I woke up
and we no longer spoke
the same language.

I haven’t heard from you since.

Someday, we’ll run into each other again, I know it. Maybe I’ll be older and smarter and just plain better. If that happens, that’s when I’ll deserve you. But now, at this moment, you can’t hook your boat to mine, because I’m liable to sink us both. 

Have you ever hoped for something? And held out for it against all the odds? Until everything you did was ridiculous?

What were you like,” I asked her. “were you happy? Or were you smiling because they told you to?

If you think anyone is sane you just don’t know enough about them.

We must scream like animals to achieve humanity