I am holding onto hope that maybe you are not quite ready to forget me. // "To be honest, I still think about you. I always wonder how you’re doing or if you’re okay. Sometimes, I wonder if you ever think about me, but I doubt it. I never really stopped loving you, I only gave up because you did. Also, just because we don’t talk anymore, doesn’t mean I don’t care anymore."

That’s when I understand that I have been stained. Whether I’m still in love with him, whether he was ever in love with me, and no matter who he’s in love with now, he changed my life. He showed me how to get lost, and then I showed myself how to get found.






YOU AREN’T JUST SOMEONE I LOVED BACK THEN. YOU WERE MY BEST FRIEND, MY BEST SELF, AND I CAN’T IMAGINE GIVING THAT UP AGAIN. YOU MIGHT NOT UNDERSTAND, BUT I GAVE YOU THE BEST OF ME, AND AFTER YOU LEFT, NOTHING WAS EVER THE SAME.

"THE THING IS," HE SAYS, "IF YOU’RE GOING TO LET SOMEONE IN TO MAKE YOU HAPPY, YOU BETTER BE PREPARED TO LET THEM MAKE YOU EQUALLY SAD."

"AND IF YOU’RE GOING TO TRUST THEM TO TREAT YOU RIGHT, YOU HAVE TO UNDERSTAND IT’S GOING TO HURT IF THEY DON’T."

NO MATTER HOW MANY TIMES
WE WALK AWAY FROM EACH OTHER,
FINDING YOU AGAIN WILL ALWAYS
BE ON MY MIND.

THE MOST FUCKED UP THING THE UNIVERSE CAN DO TO A PERSON IS SEND THEM THE LOVE OF THEIR LIFE AT THE WRONG TIME.

I DIDN’T SAY “I LOVE YOU” TO HEAR IT BACK. I SAID IT TO MAKE SURE YOU KNEW.

YOU NEED SOMEONE WHO GOES OUT OF THEIR WAY TO MAKE IT OBVIOUS THAT THEY WANT YOU IN THEIR LIFE

NO FUCK YOU BECAUSE I WAS GOOD ENOUGH AND YOU RUINED ME

AFTER ALL YOU’VE PUT ME THROUGH, YOU WOULD THINK I’D HATE YOU. BUT IN THE END I WANT TO THANK YOU, BECAUSE YOU MADE ME THAT MUCH STRONGER
Thank you for leaving me when I actually needed you the most.

YOU KNOW YOU REALLY LOVE SOMEONE, WHEN YOU DON’T HATE THEM FOR BREAKING YOUR HEART.





SHOW ME YOUR WORST,
AND I WILL SHOW YOU 
HOW I LOVE YOU 
JUST THE SAME.



I BROKE MY OWN HEART LOVING YOU.









AS LONG AS I LOVE YOU I’M NOT EMPTY. AND THAT’S THE REASON WHY I CAN’T LET YOU GO - I DON’T WANNA BE EMPTY AGAIN.
14/09/2014
I still love you. 



I SAW THE MADNESS IN HIS EYES BEFORE I SAW THE BEAUTY. I STAYED.

SO YOU WIN. YOU FORGOT ABOUT ME WHILE I WAS STILL SAYING YOUR NAME IN MY SLEEP. EVEN NOW, I WAKE UP IN THE MIDDLE OF THE NIGHT AND IT’S STILL ABOUT YOU. LOOK, I CAN’T FORGET IT. I WON’T FORGET IT. YOU DON’T FORGET THE PEOPLE YOU LOVE, YOU JUST LEARN TO LIVE WITH THEM SOMEWHERE STILL INSIDE OF YOU.





"You’re going to be the last person I think of on New Years Eve, I promise. 
I will laugh and I will raise my glass. 
(this is to loving myself better next year)."

"I promised myself I would never fall in love with you, but when I was with you we laughed too hard & I knew I was screwed."

"This is the least I have ever liked you, but it’s still more than I like anyone else."

“I loved you 
long before 
I understood you.”

Once I found her, now she is gone, 

“I’m tired of trying to erase
the memories of who you
used to be.”

Today someone asked 
what happened to me and
I didn’t know how to stop
myself from allowing your
name to fall across my lips.








"I would rather sleep on your chest than a hundred pillows."

someone please come pick me up and drive around all night with me just listening to music and talking about life

(via im-sad-lets-hav

You’re homesick for arms that don’t want to hold you."

"and if they want to leave, hold the door open for them.

"I love you, I can wait."

"She’s the type of girl who forgives easily, but hardly forgets. She’ll be mad at you and she’ll get over it the next day. She’ll almost be 100% sure she’s done with you and then she’ll remember how much you mean to her. She’ll ignore you until she starts missing you again. It’s easy because she cares enough to not hold grudges. Even if you hurt her, she’ll find it in her heart to drop it. But see, that’s the forgiving part. The forgetting part is not as easy because although she’ll move on from the arguments and harsh words, it’s stuck in her memory and she’ll remember it as long as you guys are together. What she hopes for, is for you to have her remember more good memories than bad."

"I hope you wake up and it suddenly hits you; that there wasn’t anyone who loved you as much as I loved you."

"She’s single because her ex never valued communication and her feelings were neglected. Trust became an issue because she was lied to and disrespected. Getting jealous became a habit because another girl was receiving his attention, time, effort, and care. She’s not single because something is wrong with her. She’s single because she loved and cared too much for a boy who didn’t love her and couldn’t commit."

"Absence makes the heart grow fonder, and I couldn’t agree more. Spending time away from things you love makes you realize how much you love them. 
However, most of the time, absence does not make the heart grow fonder. Depending on what side of the fence you are on. Some forget, some hurt. Guess in due time answers will reveal."

"You said you were afraid to lose me, then you faced your fears and left."

"Stop setting yourself on fire for someone who wont even stay to watch you burn.."

"Sometimes, looking for answers only leads to more questions. Sometimes, you’re better off not knowing."

"Just because we don’t talk anymore, doesn’t mean that I’ve forgotten about you. It doesn’t mean that I no longer care. Truth is, I still do. I do my best to check up on you, to see how you’re doing. To see if you’re okay, but every time I get the urge to talk to you, it suddenly hits me that, we’re strangers, you don’t want me in your life, hence the reason why I’m no longer a part of you. But, even though everything’s changed; I just want you to know that, I’m still here. I’ll still be here for you, I’ll still lend you my shoulders and ears. I don’t care what time it is, what I’m doing. Don’t hesitate to talk to me, because half the time, i wish that you were talking to me. I just really miss your presence, I miss you being my best friend, I just miss you in general…"

its been over a year and you’re still on my mind 

"One day you’re gonna want her. That girl that knew she wasn’t perfect, but tried to be for you. That girl who wanted nothing more than to be there for you, and loving you was the only way she could. The girl who sees your flaws, but values them as much as your strengths. That girl who still can’t bring herself to hate you, even though sometimes you probably deserve it. The girl that should have you, but doesn’t."

"And I couldn’t stop starring at that painting, because it reminded me so much of how I was broken that summer."

2014, aka the year everything hurt but somehow i didn’t die

"Ever since she met you 
She had emotion in her eyes 
Tears un seen ; unspoken
Because it passes her mind 
A lot a lot 
You could be the one 
But fuck without you she’s none ."

"My heart hurts when I think of all the time I haven’t spent with you."

"Please don’t wait until I’m gone so you can finally miss me.
Miss me when you have me, love me like you lost me."

"Eventually, one of two things will happen. He’ll realize you’re worth it, or you’ll realize he isn’t."

You knew what you were doing and you knew it would hurt me, but somehow that didn’t stop you.."

IF IT DOESN’T OPEN, IT’S NOT YOUR DOOR.

"No, we didn’t date. Technically he wasn’t an ex-boyfriend. But he was an ex-something, an ex-maybe.
An ex-almost."
"Continue to share your heart with people even if it has been broken."

"I hope you find what you’re looking for in 2015"

"This year would have been
So much more
Beautiful
If you had been there
To finish it
With me."
"I saw the good in all of your bad."

Perhaps all these memories over the last year of you and I, will just be another chapter I write. Right now, it may feel like you are every word in the book but some day, tomorrow. Or one day, months from now, you will be the page I finally turn.

I wish I had told you that there was more to it than the words I said. Surely you knew that whatever was there on the first day, was still there on the last. The same kind of breeze kissing my hair and the same half moon shining down on us. The first time I noticed it, you walked me back to the station. The second time I looked up at it, I had my ear phones plugged it while trying to catch the train back home.
I still catch myself wondering about how you’re doing. Then I find myself hoping, maybe you’re thinking about me too. Do you even remember? Or are you doing the same things we did, with someone else, because I couldn’t be that person for you? I was so close to sending you a message the other day. And every single day before that.
I don’t crave you at night. I want you the moment I open my eyes, asking myself what I should have for breakfast in the morning - pancakes or waffles? You always chose pancakes.
Then I am back at it again. I sit here rereading our stories as if I don’t know how it ends.
"

-

A Story A Day #359 by Ming D. Liu 

 

"if you don’t mind me asking, why haven’t you been with anyone? i know it’s not because no one gives you their time, it’s because you don’t choose to waste yours on them. you drip of sass and it’s endearing; it’s interesting," he said. "so it’s not that you didn’t have a choice in your decision to remain alone. you chose it."

"because," i replied, "people only follow their hearts at 3 in the morning when they’re lonely. and i want to have conversations over brunch."

"and you never found those conversations?"

"i did," i smiled sadly. "but they ended. and so, i chose to stop wasting my time laughing at 3pm and lying awake at 3am. i chose to sleep in an empty bed, free from messages that only came when they were on their sixth drink and when their sheets got cold."

"